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Yesterday my friend's air unit exploded in her room so I helped her clean up and paint. It took over 6 hours and I must say I am sore as fuck. Everything aches, but at least her room isn't a mess anymore, lol. My sister's surgery turned out well and she's recovering nicely Now I just need my mom's surgery to go well on the...
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I'm really happy right now. I finally finished the song i've been working on. The title will probably be A Soldier's Fight is Endless. I wrote it about all the veterans who aren't receiving proper treatment after their tour of duty is over. I've seen my father having to fight and struggle just to get care and it really pushed me to write this one....
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Started writing a new song a few days ago and i've finished the first verse. I hope this one won't be like the last few where I hit a wall and can't find anything to write about. Once I figure out the chorus i'm pretty sure the rest of it will unfold quickly. Things have been going alright the past few days. The nightmares haven't...
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Lately i've been having nothing but nightmares. The worst is that they are so vivid that they seem real. When I wake up I can still feel everything that happened in my dream. In one nightmare I was being eaten alive by a pack of wild animals and when I woke up I could feel wounds in my flesh. It felt as if my skin...
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So the surgery was cancelled today 10 minutes before the procedure. Apparently her being diagnosed 3 different times by doctors with having cancer isn't enough evidence for the insurance company to know if she should even have the surgery. I'm severely pissed right now. Why wait till the last second to decide this? I will never understand america's medical system.

My mom's surgery starts tomorrow afternoon. The doctors said it will take around 10 hours to finish everything up and then after 2 months of recovery they will begin the reconstructive surgery. Everyone is on edge now and it's only going to get worse tomorrow. A few people from my mother's side of the family will be coming to stay with us and that's just...
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I wrote a new poem today called Feeling of Fear. Let me know what you think.

This feeling of fear from having everything to lose.
A feeling of hate because you don't get to choose.
Beyond a road of black lays a gentle auburn sky.
But you were never meant to reach it, just meant to idle by.

If the right path leads to heaven...
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My mom's surgery has been scheduled for in 2 weeks. She's worried about the breast removal surgery, but every one in my family is supporting her. My family doesn't usually get along or agree on much but we're all coming together to make her feel secure. Things have been stressful around the house since christmas. Between family fighting and the usual holiday stress it's been...
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