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blackeyed
what a rocky ride...

ever been ready to get defensive only to realize you don't have a damn leg to stand on? you just have to sit there and take blow after blow. okay, all of you perfect people haven't been through this, but i basically needed to have my head surgically removed from my ass. shocked wise up sucker...

i don't know what has been...
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plasticfangs:
My.

I am so very sorry. I feel 100% responsible.
I hope everything is okay, and please accept my apologies for being a nosey bastard in the first place.

As far as this goes, nothing is going to happen. I don't know much. but I know I'm no homewrecker. Even if the guy was a jerk, I don't think I could make a move on the wife of another man...of course, who knows, really...but in this situation, at least, I think I'll just settle for a secret crush.

I just needed to vent my frustrations, and perhaps play up my own ego for a moment. Becuase I'm so very attracted to her, and because it seems like my ability to meet the right girl is nonexistant, so I'm currently in the state of fighting the oncoming bitterness.

Anways...again, I'm truly sorry for what happened, and I hope you're able to work things out. Goodness...I feel like shit...
26oo:
ooooooooooh...I will try to get my hands on those posters...if I get any extra then you get one, aiit?
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thanks everyone for the friendly words! i'm just about ready to launch the apology boat, let's hope it floats. it's always the stupid little things that lead to the worst trouble.

what is my lesson? get a better internal filter so i quit shooting my fool mouth off. whatever

oh well, at least i got to dance like a mad fool last night. anyone looking for...
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ninji:
dear darling: never apologize for being extraordinarily you (true, i'm biased and crushed out on you, but i would say this to anyone!) wink
stickyrice:
I worked at a Swedish restaurant once and I was told once that dogs used to pee on the lutefisk outside the old-time Swedish markets. The customers liked the flavor (which is already pretty much along dog-pee lines) even better.
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man my words taste fucking awful...
is it not possible to live without having secrets? well i guess my life would be boring. but some things have to go to the grave, no matter how distant your confessor, because once the words are out there, it's anyone's game.
i am not very good at this interpersonal relations stuff. you know, getting along with other people...
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ninji:
mmmm--advice well-taken. smile g'luck to you, take it easy on yourself, lass.
moloch:
Hey...Mr.Burns has to have his Smithers, dosen't he? smile
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Countdown to Canada: 17 days

woohoo!! 3-page journal...really not proud because it just means i couldn't be bothered to write anything new. tongue

but today is a bright and shiny friday, though alarmingly cold. so i'll write something new

something new

lessee, busy busy busy
today we get our door reinforced and new locks put on; who knows how many copies of the keys are floating...
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plasticfangs:
Hahahahaha!!! I love Frank Whaley!

Have you ever seen "Career Opportunities", with him and Jennifer Connelly? BRILLIANT! smile

I can't make out Rose tattoo (since I'm at work and blowing pictures on nude women wouldn't be the most prudent of decisions)...but I'll check it out when I get home, thanks!

I'm going to get the cover of the "Ghastlycrumb Tinies" on my forearm...which is his most popular, I know... and then these bat designs he did for the stage version of "Dracula", I'm going to get of each chest...not that you asked, but at any rate...biggrin

I hoep you are enjoying the trip, BTW!


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ninji:
niiice. silly = good!
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listening to: 'polyethylene' by radiohead
reading: A Flag for Sunrise by Robert Stone. actually reading 35% of it for the second time, because i'm reading one of the 3 main characters' chapters and skipping the others. interesting to see just a part of the picture.

i bet there are a hell of a lot of alcoholics in france, and no one's talking because it's so...
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plasticfangs:
I have befriended you! I hope you do not mind...lemme know if you do and I'll remove you asap...

Yes; It is amazing how introspective and thoughtfull some people are, here...it's a very nice change of pace from people who have all the answers, or who are too busy living for the moment to give thought to anything (not that there's anyting wrong with either type of person...it's just that most of my friends are either know-it-alls or more more interested in the visceral than thoughtfull).

I feel quite lucky to have met the people I have here.

And defintely cheaper than therapy! biggrin

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bigpunkmike:
how did you know I like to make out with wheezy old women? my secret has been revealed *casually walks away*
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That the self advances and confirms the myriad things is called delusion.
That the myriad things advance and confirm the self is enlightenment.
--genjokoan skull
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sabine:
i actually ended up getting the ralph shirt later. couldn't resist. it is kinda sad though, that i'm 20 and almost every piece of clothing i own has cartoon characters on it. smile
moloch:
People seem to be WAY to paranoid about diseases...to the point of stupidity. Legitimate precautions are a must...but not going to the Asian market?
Genjokoan was wise...I prefer the philosophy of Roosevelt Franklin from Sesame Street; "I dig me some string beans". OK..I don't know exactly what that means...forgive me...it's late(early) and I haven't been to sleep yet.
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surreal
how strange is the internet
that i can see a list that tells me with whom i am friends and that i can not recognize all of the names on that list
banal curiosities

i have accepted a position of moderation in my feelings about 'the state of the world today.' no one is completely right or wrong. it seems that everyone looks for easy...
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kengineer:
Here I am on page 2. Aren't *you* the bell of the ball today?

Yes, I followed a link to your journal from someone else's page about a month ago and put you on my friends list to keep track of you. I guess that makes me a lurker. It's not often you find someone blogging from Wallis and Fortuna. (sp?) It occurs to me now that I should have spoken up, but what could I possibly contribute to the Night Of The Swingers Club post?

Anyway, well me, friend. Always good to meet another Naussica fan. I liked it better than Spirited Away and Princess Mononoke, which were supposed to be his masterworks, yet I seem to be the only person who's seen it. Go figure.
alyssum:
I imagine vegimite is something like anchovies in that it helps to be introduced to it in the proper context. The lunatic people who keep feeding it to me over the years give me a spoonful straight, which is a bit... well, not good at any rate. But I very much like anchovies in context, and I imagine if I were eating vegimite with something it could be something I'd really like.

I've been trying to read more on the chakras, I'm having a difficult time finding something that delves more into them than most books do. Any recommendations on the subject?

Speaking of studies...I see you also mention faeries in your "Into..." section. Yay biggrin That's something I've done a fair bit of studying in, historically and otherwise.
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surreal
how strange is the internet
that i can see a list that tells me with whom i am friends and that i can not recognize all of the names on that list
banal curiosities

have you ever found it necessary to just stop ~thinking~ about life? it's hard to write about what i mean because i just can't think about being alive. all that's left...
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good news: it ain't bloody snowing on me! tongue

the vile oil paint smell is leaving the flat

i just had the perfect lunch--spaghetti with straight-up tomato sauce and fresh baguette, and i am about to eat a mysterious green almond-paste sweet shaped like a ripe fig.

tonight i eat fresh ramen and see Adaptation

i know someone who is a literal april fool--it's his birthday...
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purephase:
cq was a great flick too. glad you liked adaptation, and i'm glad that the oscars seemed to stay away from it. i dislike the oscars.

it's cool you're going to make it to prom? when are you coming back from france? or are you just visiting?
quinn:
its a windy 80 degrees though. really really windy. thats okay though. i'm not about to complain...cuz i love a little shorts and tank top weather. i even got me a new sg boybeater to wear. how rad is that?
france huh? for real. wowzie.
what takes ya there?
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being alive is really getting on my nerves. i have not moved beyond a state of extended adolescence. i still rebel from responsibility, i'm still moody and defensive...i felt so clever for hitting on this description of my mental block, but i haven't done much with it in the 2 years since.
i think a lot of my anxiety is just from not really having...
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26oo:
Don't you worry...I'm trying to think of something funny...nothing...I have the opposite problem, I have no ambition...other than to...no...no ambition.
Where are you from originally?
_v_:
i am sleepy
just wanted to say hi
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what is up with this friendly fire guff? they can read your mail over your shoulder from satelites in space, but they can't figure out who to bomb? no wonder they can't kill saddam. whatever

i am happy people want to be my friends. thanks folks! love

the renos in our flat are nearly done. all kinds of fancy built-in furniture, and i'm not even going to...
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26oo:
(I can read your email too wink)
26oo:
you're on ze money.
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kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss
cause the world needs a li'l more luv
doncha just love when life gets interesting? last week i was so mad like really fuckin uptight. was it the pressure drop before the storm? did anyone else feel crazy last week? gee i gotta lotta questions today.

i feel better not paying a lot of attention to the war and extenuating circumstances. i have to find out...
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26oo:
I have 5 pairs of shoes: 1 set of indoor soccer shoes for indoor soccer, 1 set of indoor soccer shoes for normal walking, 1 set of cleats, 2 sets of dress shoes.

My indoor soccer shoes have lasted forever and there isn't even a scratch on them. I swear they'll go on forever.

But you have to care about people...otherwise they'll eat all your ice cream frown
purephase:
if you're not at home (i'm assuming somewhere in canada is your home) where are you? sounds interesting.