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So much more content.

But I am still pulling these drill bits out of my brain and the spears out of my gut.

UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGHHHHHHH!
I had to wake up.

Alas, arrived to a safe haven.

It is warmer and feels somewhat comfortable.

There is some food. There is some empathy.

Darkness still lurks.

A better day indeed. I am staring at he clock, knowing that I should have left for work 15 minutes ago.

When I want to be who I am, it is still unerachievment to others.

Difficult to analyze what is good or evil that intercepts my path.

Feels like I am in the Labyrinth.

It is going to be a fucking great day. Really.

It seems when you drive away you take me with you. I desire the challenge.

What does absence do?

I think if I learn to drive cautiously myself, it will be safer for the rest.

I see a future, but not a present. I see the past has built the present and the present can only be experience for the future.

Time heals.

The journeys we have embarked have always been disaters. Tense and in turmoil. Reckless and even fatal.

I am not sure you understand the fears I face. The fears of the same disasters.

Ever heared the saying "People don't change" ?

That goes for the both.

Many highways and much soul serching. Soul so deep it's endless driving. Maybe a longer trip would do.

Halloween is over. Sad.

But not over in my heart.

The things that I want are truly simple.
To be me, without holding the blame.
Alone I have been.

A butterflies wings are so thin and fragile. They are so easily torn. Helpless they will shake and scamper. The fear they must have. Without those wings I'm sure they struggle and fight for so long and then become weak. Possibly they would lie down and...
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I am numb. But I am calm. I woke up happy.