defconnexion

It's a new year, so I thought I'd put up a new post, but I haven't the foggiest about what I should write here. I've gotten in touch with two old friends via the magical interwebs, proving once again that technology keeps me from going insane. I've also decided to start up yoga in earnest and I'm going to be checking out a place in...
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I'm doing pretty fucking well, actually.

Panic. I imagine that when most people think of panic it's wide eyed pulse racing immediately following the realization that there is something in the dark and it is about to do grievous harm. That sort of thing that in a moment twists the guts and stops the heart and even keeps breath from passing lips with its sheer power and weight. Cold sweat. Numbness....
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I'm doing it. I'm posting to post; I'm writing to write. I have no idea what's going to happen in the next few minutes and instead of fear or self-loathing I have this looming threat of disappointment. Next month is nanowrimo and I've told myself that I'm going to do it; the truth is that I don't know where the Muse is. I used to...
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Wishing a Happy Birthday to my brother. I'd post up some amusing stories of when we were younger but I'm trying to avoid legal action.

It puts things into perspective, really. Some problems are just so small, so ultimately simple to conquer. I am humbled and blessed. She was never my friend, but her passing has sent ripples even to my little corner of the pond and I wish all of you, her friends, family and lovers, nothing but the best and offer you anything, anything at all, if it...
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Life is full of compromises, she said, and you'll have to do things that make you unhappy so that, some day, when you're older you'll have the things that will make you happy. My mother taught me that at a young age and I took it to heart. I wish that I hadn't. I wish I had stomped my foot and shook my fist and...
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Okay so a friend and I are trying to put together a little SG shindig at the Blu Razz and while I don't need much help with the logistics I do need help meeting and getting in touch with local members who'd be interested in getting together for drinking, dancing and calamari. So, any Chicagoland peoples interested in good food, drinks and times should let...
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I miss tapes. Magnetic cassettes. Memorex. I miss that. Mixing them. I used to daisy chain my VCR (wiki it) through my tuner and turntable into my tape deck so I could sample my collection of bad anime and old records onto mix tapes that would take hours of effort to compile and record. This isn't some kind of rant about the evils of iTunes...
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Everything. Is so. fast

It is said that the chakras are best aligned towards creation in these morning hours and I can feel the wheels turning now, as I do most every day around this time; this is so much wasted motion. The stories that unwind between my synaptic lights are pages in the wind and my hand is rarely steady enough to pluck them from the sky and...
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This Summer I'm going to spend time in the grass, on my back, picking out shapes in the clouds. I'm going to stop whatever I'm doing to look up and trace the white streams of turbulance that passing jets leave in the blue sky. I'm going to wave to ducks, especially the ones with the shiny green heads. I'll be a little more tolerant to...
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