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every year on my birthday I make a wish, wish just goes to show that birthday wishes never do come true.

I wish that I would never have another birthday.

sigh stress stress stress..not mine though for once my poor boyfriend..its his turn to be freaking out and there's nothing I can do .....bah I feel so helpless and I love him so much. I think I will just beat the crap outta everyone that gets in his way.

grrrrr luckily his ex seems to have faded into the background a bit.I feel very sorry...
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Once upon a time. Once upon a time. Once upon a time.

Once upon a time there was a young girl who lived a beautiful house. A beautiful house with long wooden hallways and cathedral ceilings. Every day she would skip up to her bedroom, up the long flight of stairs she would go to a room with no windows.

if there are no windows...
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So mike requested a journal update...

yes i have been a fucking ass and not writing but I've been busy. Being in love can do that to a girl.

I can not believe its been about 4 months since scott and I started dating. It feels like 4 years. Scott and I have been best friends for years seeing that our bands (the overprivileged and...
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hey all sorry its been so long ..i've been busy busy..well busy seeing scott but alas he's now touring europe for 3 1/2 weeks so now I'm on my own again. He's so sweet though..he keeps giving me flowers and he's scheduled e-cards to keep coming while he's gone But enough about that.

I lost 3 lbs..horrary for me..I'm trying to loose weight so i...
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hey all sorry its been so long ..i've been busy busy..well busy seeing scott but alas he's now touring europe for 3 1/2 weeks so now I'm on my own again. He's so sweet though..he keeps giving me flowers and he's scheduled e-cards to keep coming while he's gone But enough about that.

I lost 3 lbs..horrary for me..I'm trying to loose weight so i...
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I'm in love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hell has officially frozen over. I'm in l-o-v-e. heheheheh and better yet he loves me and actually has for some time.

our show last nite went so well.. and we play again today..and then I go out w/ scott again yea me

Sniff SG rejected me..oh the sadness..lol. I had fun doing it though I posted some of them in the plus sized women's group. But I will probably try again..but I'm not really doing this for the $ anyways..Im doing it for me.

Tonite my boy comes over woohoo..I can't wait to see him.. he makes me giggle.

Two entertainment occurences have influenced this rambling..and I swear it's not b/c I'm not about to get my period or the 2 glasses of wine I've had.

I saw freaky friday tonite w/ my mom..not the old version ..the new one w/ jamie lee curtis who I love. Of course in the new version the daughter is in a band that pracitces at her mothers...
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Two entertainment occurences have influenced this rambling..and I swear it's not b/c I'm not about to get my period or the 2 glasses of wine I've had.

I saw freaky friday tonite w/ my mom..not the old version ..the new one w/ jamie lee curtis who I love. Of course in the new version the daughter is in a band that pracitces at her mothers...
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Yup sensitive..that's me.....sensitive, worrysome, stressed outfill in the black w/ whatever negative adjective you want. It's amazing how something can for a fleeting second strike you as amusing and then you take a second to think about it and you realize..gee what a dick.
Sometimes I disgust myself actually caring about some of the people I care about. It's fairly obvious that some of them...
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Wednesday I got to hang out w/ my boy toy again.It went well I think..A little awkard I guess because neither of us is sure of how to deal w/ this publicly. We went out w/ another friend of ours..so when I saw him I wasnt sure if I was supposed to hug him or kiss him or what..(we hugged), but as the night went...
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