When faced with the prospect of dramatic change the mind undergoes severe stress. Neural pathways collapse to reignite long forgotten experiences, the constant fires of the outside world are reduced to a subtle shimmer, and your capacity to take bullshit from others hits an all time low.
Overall with everything going on in my life right now I find that I'm in a positive place. No matter what happens in the future I realize I can get past it because for once in my existence I'm living in the moment. I don't worry about the past or future because they both exist outside of my perception.
My dad is getting better. The doctors say the chemo is working and I believe this is just one step to him being cancer free one day. I've often joked with people when I feel ill that they shouldn't worry about me because despite how things seem I'm too stubborn to die. Take a wild guess where I got that particular trait from. :)
On a final note I'm also celebrating a small victory. Five years ago I had a Youtube Channel that a poured my creative energies into because I had nothing better to do. It was fun and I actually had an audience with certain videos getting hundreds or a few thousand views. Then I left the scene to pursue a romantic relationship which was a huge mistake given how things turned out.
Now armed with more knowledge and better editing software I've been trying to get back into making videos. I even have a few friends that are committed to creating a channel as well. While the channel hasn't been doing particularly well I will admit our videos are nowhere near as professional as a lot of stuff Youtube has to offer. I am getting better at editing every day though.
In the last few days however we've gained a few new subs and views on our videos. It's nothing crazy by any meager means but it's at least a start that I hope keeps on going.
If you've read this far I want to thank you. I may not respond to comments or likes but I do notice them and appreciate them greatly.