well today was the end of me and my gf's break. she wants to move on and is leaving me, ive never felt a pain this sharp. it feels as tho all the butterflys i once had have began dieing slowly in my stomach and my heart is melting from the pressure its under. i thought this week would be tough as was but it doesnt help when you loose your job and your love in the same month.....sometimes i just feel like laying on the ground in the rain seeing if i can just decay and fade away from it all!