Well, I have decided that I'm out of here... Because this site is evil, and I don't really have time for it... So bye bye.
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Hear ye, hear ye!
Let it be known that I, cubistic, love octagon. She is funny, intelligent, sexy, fun to be around, and when she's in a good mood, very, very nice. In a nutshell, she is awesome. When she is not crossed.
That is all.
Let it be known that I, cubistic, love octagon. She is funny, intelligent, sexy, fun to be around, and when she's in a good mood, very, very nice. In a nutshell, she is awesome. When she is not crossed.
That is all.
scylla:
yay! 
octagon:
*poke*
Don't you mean "even when she is crossed"?
*poke*
hehe.
You're neat.
Don't you mean "even when she is crossed"?
*poke*
hehe.
You're neat.
I feel like a piece of crap...
Really wish I could make it stop, but I was dumb and an ass. And so now I get to feel like a piece of crap.
Isn't this all exciting?
Oh, and my grandmother died on Saturday night, so I get to leave during finals week to go to her funeral. When I went out there before, everyone...
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Really wish I could make it stop, but I was dumb and an ass. And so now I get to feel like a piece of crap.
Isn't this all exciting?
Oh, and my grandmother died on Saturday night, so I get to leave during finals week to go to her funeral. When I went out there before, everyone...
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octagon:
I didn't know you were going out there during finals week. I'm sorry. I don't mean to make you feel like a piece of crap, but if I don't tell you, then it will never get fixed. I don't expect you to have all the answers, jut be willing to work on it with me. Cause in the end, I want to forgive you for your mistakes, I just need to get over them, which is a little hard sometimes.
I"m a robot pirate.
I"m a robot pirate. 
mei:
**hugs**
good luck on your finals, and i'm sorry about your grandma.
i'm going to be hanging out at school on wednesday and thursday again - you should tell me when (if) you're going to be available for food/pool. mmm. pool.
(*blushes* at being in your favorites)
good luck on your finals, and i'm sorry about your grandma.
i'm going to be hanging out at school on wednesday and thursday again - you should tell me when (if) you're going to be available for food/pool. mmm. pool.
(*blushes* at being in your favorites)
So yeah... Stuff is, I've decided, at least usually, very, very weird... The last couple days have been fairly good, though... Other than the fact that I've found out that grad school is going to be rather difficult to get into... But whatever, I'll figure something out, I guess...
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scylla:
I love your new userpic, Cubistic. Meep, grad school is scary, good luck with figuring out what to do... it's a pretty scary idea to me...
Meep, grad school is scary, good luck with figuring out what to do... it's a pretty scary idea to me...
scylla:
..and I lefted you a testimonial. All pink testimonials so far, good job... hehe...
Why am I willing to love people? If I wasn't, life would be so much easier... I would never feel the pain of unrequited love... I don't think that anything hurts more than someone who said for such a long time that they loved you insisting that they can't love anyone... And then telling you all of the things that are wrong with you and...
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mei:
love is tough - i think that people fall in love and then out of love and they say at the end that they never loved at all, because it's too hard to admit or explain how the falling-out-of-love went. that might not be true in your situation, but i don't know.
flux:
nice new pic rock star. I'LL BUTTER YOU.
I hate myself right now.
As in, burning hatred... Like, what the fuck purpose does that thing have at all? Hatred...
As in, burning hatred... Like, what the fuck purpose does that thing have at all? Hatred...
Life can be a bottomless source of confusion sometimes, can't it?
octagon:
You mean there are times when its not?
bah.
flux:
feh.
octagon:
Hi. I can't sleep. And it is all my fault.
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I feel like I've completely fucked up my life... And I don't know how to unffuck it... Let alone fix it...
God damn it...
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I've been using that phrase a lot lately...
I understand that I've done shit wrong, but I don't know what to do to fix the problems that those choices have caused... I don't know what I'm doing wrong; I...
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God damn it...
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I've been using that phrase a lot lately...
I understand that I've done shit wrong, but I don't know what to do to fix the problems that those choices have caused... I don't know what I'm doing wrong; I...
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I have decided that in order to not be depressed, I can just go around being very over-the-top idiotic and/or assholish (on purpose, of course)... Cause that way, when someone would, say, call me an asshole (or I'd feel like an ass for something I had done), I would know that it was because I was doing a good job...
Rock it...
Yeah, like that...
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Rock it...
Yeah, like that...
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flux:
yeah, i really shouldn't be going.
scylla:
Yeah, I noticed you guys putting up the decorations... superrad! 
Ya know, there are times, that I think to myself, "wow, I suck."
Then there are other times... When I'm asleep.
That's mostly it these days, and that sucks.
I hate depression... It's so illogical. And yeah, love's pretty damn illogical, but it's happiness...
I guess emotions in general aren't very logical, but whatever... My major skill (namely, my mathematically reasoning mind - ever striving...
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Then there are other times... When I'm asleep.
That's mostly it these days, and that sucks.
I hate depression... It's so illogical. And yeah, love's pretty damn illogical, but it's happiness...
I guess emotions in general aren't very logical, but whatever... My major skill (namely, my mathematically reasoning mind - ever striving...
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tygertyger:
Ever read Johnny the Homicidal Maniac? It gave me something to think about in that regard.
Every time I see her, it hurts... It hurts because all I really want to do is give her a hug, and nuzzle my face in next to her neck... Losing myself in her... But I can't. She won't let me. She'll hug me, but in the way of a friend, not the way she used to...
Love hurts, and I don't think that I...
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flux:
i'm so sorry that you have to be going through this, darlin'. loneliness is even more of a burden when you used to be full. and those hugs with that little bit missingoh God, i have felt that ache. but we can't lose ourselves now. being strong is easy to talk about, yet hard to do. i'm working on it. i hope you can, too.
as always, you know where i live. take care. be well.
the universe is unfolding as it should.
as always, you know where i live. take care. be well.
the universe is unfolding as it should.
scylla:
I'm sorry it's so crappy 
It's one of the really hard things about dating, esp. in a place like this, is interacting with them every day, trying to be civil and even friends even though there's all of this awkward and hurt... I keep seeing my ex (aka sid vicious) everywhere... and he's always with the same girl. It's been a couple of months but it still hurts to see him... I tried to be friends with him for a while but realized I didn't have that kind of strength...
I hope you are able to feel comfortable around her eventually, it is a long and painful process.. but you have lots of friends to help... *hugs*
It's one of the really hard things about dating, esp. in a place like this, is interacting with them every day, trying to be civil and even friends even though there's all of this awkward and hurt... I keep seeing my ex (aka sid vicious) everywhere... and he's always with the same girl. It's been a couple of months but it still hurts to see him... I tried to be friends with him for a while but realized I didn't have that kind of strength...
I hope you are able to feel comfortable around her eventually, it is a long and painful process.. but you have lots of friends to help... *hugs*
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