sweet marie, there's a hole where my heart should be.
i finally shaved off all the scruff... it was going on 10 days, and oddly enough, even though i looked like a redneck/child molester/t.v. magic queer, i was getting much more attention than without it. i am the same fucking person that i have been all my life, yet with a half-assed eighth grader beard...
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i finally shaved off all the scruff... it was going on 10 days, and oddly enough, even though i looked like a redneck/child molester/t.v. magic queer, i was getting much more attention than without it. i am the same fucking person that i have been all my life, yet with a half-assed eighth grader beard...
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i've resurrected, back from the dead and back to work after being on the road for 7 days.
it was a whirlwind journey, from arizona through new mexico, to texas and back. i went to austin, texas for the austin city limits music festival with my friend rc and his roommate brett. it was a week of jokes, smokes, and midnite tokes, with a hazing...
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it was a whirlwind journey, from arizona through new mexico, to texas and back. i went to austin, texas for the austin city limits music festival with my friend rc and his roommate brett. it was a week of jokes, smokes, and midnite tokes, with a hazing...
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ms:
Sounds like a good time. You got to see Jay Farrar and Cafe Tacuba, always a good time. And if i need help with layout or anything like that I'll be more than happy to let you know. Lates brutha.
Ten years ago, on a cold dark night
Someone was killed, 'neath the town hall light
There were few at the scene, but they all agreed
That the slayer who ran, looked a lot like me
The judge said son, what is your alibi
If you were somewhere else, then you won't have to die
I spoke not a word, thou it meant my life...
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Someone was killed, 'neath the town hall light
There were few at the scene, but they all agreed
That the slayer who ran, looked a lot like me
The judge said son, what is your alibi
If you were somewhere else, then you won't have to die
I spoke not a word, thou it meant my life...
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silencenoir:
That is sad. 
dilligan:
Cry me a river..
oh
Cry me a river..
oh
oh
Cry me a river..
oh
i'm sorry.
i was just getting a cherry/coke slurpee on a whim... my cousin wanted chocolate milk, so he begged me to stop at the s'leven. i was in line behind you, and yeah, i was checking you out, my eyes following the outline of your thighs... it kinda turned me off that you were buying gee-pee-cees, but everybody needs a hobby, right?
you apoligized...
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i was just getting a cherry/coke slurpee on a whim... my cousin wanted chocolate milk, so he begged me to stop at the s'leven. i was in line behind you, and yeah, i was checking you out, my eyes following the outline of your thighs... it kinda turned me off that you were buying gee-pee-cees, but everybody needs a hobby, right?
you apoligized...
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mothra:
no free stickers at Fairey's show, but great prints... although most you could buy off the internet.
ragtag:
i like the way you write. and yup violence is good and nope i haven't seen that one.
it's the kind of morning where you destroy all the pictures you took of yourself... it's a brand new day to lose your train of thought, to wonder why your co-workers are all begining to look like errol flynn. the flourescent lights are like chipped daggers sinking into your eyes, and it doesn't really surprise you when your skin starts to crawl away.
-bobby
-bobby
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themadking:
Yo soy es muy idiota!
So, Bobby, it happened again. For the fourth time in five years (it sounds like a long time, but it's not), I bought a pair of pants or skirt or whatever piece of clothing, and in the pocket was one of those "Inspected By" tags. Now, almost every new article of clothing (and a few of the used ones) I buy has an "Inspected By" tag in it. But usually it's an obscure, large number like 386 or 4099. Once I got a name. But four times now, four times, I've gotten the same inspector for my clothing. Which one was he or she, you ask? What? You don't ask? Well, fuck you, I'm telling you.
Inspector Number 23.
That's right. This one guy has personally inspected four articles of my clothing.
Now, I don't want to sound paranoid here, but what do you suppose it means? Is it just a randomly recurring number? Coincidence? I don't think it can be. Once is happenstance, twice is coincidence, three times is enemy action. What's four? Death?
Well, Bobby, this may be the end for me. And I never told you my true name. But don't mourn my passing. Celebrate it as a joyous occasion. There are other worlds than these. At least, Stephen King says so.
On the off chance that I'm not to wake up dead tomorrow, though, don't disregard this message entirely. Take it to heart that there is an answer, and it's not forty-two. It's twenty-three, goddammit. Well, that's all for now, I guess. Chances are I'll be posting tomorrow. If not, though, let them know that I accepted my fate with quiet stoicism.
PS: This is what part of the alphabet would look like if Q and R were eliminated.
PPS: Just to reassure you, I'm not really this crazy. Almost, but not quite.
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So, Bobby, it happened again. For the fourth time in five years (it sounds like a long time, but it's not), I bought a pair of pants or skirt or whatever piece of clothing, and in the pocket was one of those "Inspected By" tags. Now, almost every new article of clothing (and a few of the used ones) I buy has an "Inspected By" tag in it. But usually it's an obscure, large number like 386 or 4099. Once I got a name. But four times now, four times, I've gotten the same inspector for my clothing. Which one was he or she, you ask? What? You don't ask? Well, fuck you, I'm telling you.
Inspector Number 23.
That's right. This one guy has personally inspected four articles of my clothing.
Now, I don't want to sound paranoid here, but what do you suppose it means? Is it just a randomly recurring number? Coincidence? I don't think it can be. Once is happenstance, twice is coincidence, three times is enemy action. What's four? Death?
Well, Bobby, this may be the end for me. And I never told you my true name. But don't mourn my passing. Celebrate it as a joyous occasion. There are other worlds than these. At least, Stephen King says so.
On the off chance that I'm not to wake up dead tomorrow, though, don't disregard this message entirely. Take it to heart that there is an answer, and it's not forty-two. It's twenty-three, goddammit. Well, that's all for now, I guess. Chances are I'll be posting tomorrow. If not, though, let them know that I accepted my fate with quiet stoicism.
PS: This is what part of the alphabet would look like if Q and R were eliminated.
PPS: Just to reassure you, I'm not really this crazy. Almost, but not quite.
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themadking:
No, I didn't get No 23 four times in a row, but the last two times have been in a row.
And, about seeing whatever you want wherever you look, I don't think that's true in the case of 23. When I first read the Hitchhiker's Guide trilogy, I consciously and unconsiously looked for the number 42 everywhere I could. I only found it in a few places, and they weren't very interesting. Twenty-three, however, really is everywhere; granted, it's not as everywhere as I would hope, but it is all around.
Of course, the Hubble Constant thingy was a neat revalation. So maybe the answer is 42, but the question has a few 23s.
And, about seeing whatever you want wherever you look, I don't think that's true in the case of 23. When I first read the Hitchhiker's Guide trilogy, I consciously and unconsiously looked for the number 42 everywhere I could. I only found it in a few places, and they weren't very interesting. Twenty-three, however, really is everywhere; granted, it's not as everywhere as I would hope, but it is all around.
Of course, the Hubble Constant thingy was a neat revalation. So maybe the answer is 42, but the question has a few 23s.
I deleted this journal entry because after i read it, i felt i sounded like a big nerd (which i guess i am), but even more so, i sounded like a whiny little bitch... or ray romano.
everybody loves bobby.
-bobby
everybody loves bobby.
-bobby
Wild Orphan - Allen Ginsberg
Blandly mother
takes him strolling
by railroad and by river
--he's the son of the absconded
hot rod angel--
and he imagines cars
and rides them in his dreams,
so lonely growing up among
the imaginary automobiles
and dead souls of Tarrytown
to create
out of his own imagination
the beauty of his wild
forebears--a mythology
he cannot inherit.
Will...
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Blandly mother
takes him strolling
by railroad and by river
--he's the son of the absconded
hot rod angel--
and he imagines cars
and rides them in his dreams,
so lonely growing up among
the imaginary automobiles
and dead souls of Tarrytown
to create
out of his own imagination
the beauty of his wild
forebears--a mythology
he cannot inherit.
Will...
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koga:
Better off dead will ALWAYS rule
invisigirl:
ah, thanks for the lovely visual about stepping on my brain.
an essay on robots.
i sat in the dark yesterday, looking around my apartment, reflecting upon all the robots i have collected. ive always been into them, starting in 1983 when my dad surprised me with starscream, a trophy to shut me up, letting hasbro and childhood imagination raise his kid when he wasnt able. he started a trend in me at that tender age,...
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i sat in the dark yesterday, looking around my apartment, reflecting upon all the robots i have collected. ive always been into them, starting in 1983 when my dad surprised me with starscream, a trophy to shut me up, letting hasbro and childhood imagination raise his kid when he wasnt able. he started a trend in me at that tender age,...
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my lead foot always gets me into trouble.
i got a speeding ticket a few weeks ago for going 53 mph in a 35 mph zone, which is 2 miles less than criminal. tonight and tomorrow night i get to take my happy ass to driving school, to avoid a fine and several points against my license. the cost of the school is only slightly...
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i got a speeding ticket a few weeks ago for going 53 mph in a 35 mph zone, which is 2 miles less than criminal. tonight and tomorrow night i get to take my happy ass to driving school, to avoid a fine and several points against my license. the cost of the school is only slightly...
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holly:
Cash by johnny cash is pretty pro christ to. but i mean that is him, so how could it not be in there. i mean it didnt tell me i was going to hell if i didnt believe (btw i dont) but just about how his believs have affected his life. i have not read man in black but it does quote a few parts out of it. i would think there would be new things in it. amazing book by an amazing man...
cheers
cheers
themadking:
RE: Your post on the Patsy Cline thread:
I've been thinking that for awhile. It's kinda scary.
I've been thinking that for awhile. It's kinda scary.
i got kicked the fuck out.
i was never an active member of SGAZ... i read through the posts with much fervor and delight, i thumbed through the pictures of the get-togethers, marveling at all that i had missed. i tried to be witty in my remarks, but i could never find the courage to actually seek them out in meatspace... i logged on today...
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i was never an active member of SGAZ... i read through the posts with much fervor and delight, i thumbed through the pictures of the get-togethers, marveling at all that i had missed. i tried to be witty in my remarks, but i could never find the courage to actually seek them out in meatspace... i logged on today...
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inara:
This was not personal. All inactive members were eliminated from the group after ample time was given for people to post on staying in the group. Sometimes events are planned on the fly, and our group is not one to be checked every few weeks. It is specified as a local group for *ACTIVE* members of the community. If you don't post and you don't come to events, then you don't belong in the group. Personally as a participater, it seems a bit invasive for people who have no intent on joijning you to be peering in at your activities, even if on an infrequent basis.
That said, if the group is that important to you, I suggest you apply to join again. This time make it count
That said, if the group is that important to you, I suggest you apply to join again. This time make it count
cornelius:
heh... if i quit feeling sorry for myself, what the hell would i do with all my free time?
i really did not take being removed personally; i totally understand. a lot of times i re-read what i write on here and i sort of regret it. it is meant to be an on-the-fly catharsis, more for me personally than anything else.
i didn't mean to sound so whiney... thanks for reminding me that if it really was that important to me, i would have given it a much higher priority. i actually do have some sort of a mental problem dealing with social situations, and am much more at ease behind a terminal than i am in real life.
-bobby
i really did not take being removed personally; i totally understand. a lot of times i re-read what i write on here and i sort of regret it. it is meant to be an on-the-fly catharsis, more for me personally than anything else.
i didn't mean to sound so whiney... thanks for reminding me that if it really was that important to me, i would have given it a much higher priority. i actually do have some sort of a mental problem dealing with social situations, and am much more at ease behind a terminal than i am in real life.
-bobby
i forget what it was that i was watching the other day, but for the first time in a long while, televison taught me something... i forget the basis as to how the situation was brought up, but 2 characters were talking about relationships, or the lack thereof.
what was brought up was that people who are attracted to "damaged goods" often only get into...
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bunkdose:
Hey man,
Kinji Fukasaku directs Battle royal.. Beat Takeshi stars as a villain/tyrant a person can easily love to hate. My friend lent me the film for a couple of weeks. I still have to track it down myself.. ... now this video you told me about.. that has me interested. I will keep a look out for it. oh yeah.
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Kinji Fukasaku directs Battle royal.. Beat Takeshi stars as a villain/tyrant a person can easily love to hate. My friend lent me the film for a couple of weeks. I still have to track it down myself.. ... now this video you told me about.. that has me interested. I will keep a look out for it. oh yeah.
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ms:
You'll find your thing that sets you off. It may take a bit and when you do find it it may not hit you at first, but eventually you will find your Golden Ticket. Just make sure that when you do find your motivation that you hold onto it. Don't let it slip your grasp because it's hard to get back. After I fucked up my ankle it was hard to get back and start hitting the gym again. But I read over some of my journals and stuff I wrote when I first had a meltdown and it all started to come back. I now realize that anger is a gift if used in a productive manner. And I would suggest keeping a journal also. It'll help you remember why you are pushing yourself when your body wants to forget.
you ever just piss everyone off? i swear i'm not trying to be this way... i'm reclusive, secretive, solitary... my neighbors are wondering why i haven't talked to them in a week. people who don't know me might think i've taken a new lover, but the fact is i'm just a workaholic... i'm commerce's bottom bitch.
my workload at the office is nice and heavy,...
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my workload at the office is nice and heavy,...
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bunkdose:
Have you ever seen the import movie Battle Royal? That movie is ill.. I still have a hard time comprehending that a movie like that would come out of Japan. I still like it, and if you love to see japanese school girls wielding Automatic weapons and binoculars..here is your fix.
About the ennui, I don't think love will solve it. I think love would be a temporary solution. Of course, I guess everything else is a temporary solution, too. Oh, well, nothing to be done.