I am going to try to update this as much as I can as an outlet for some of the stuff going on in my life. I don't expect anyone to read this or to respond either.
It isn't the not having someone in my life that is hard to deal with, it is the knowing that I wanted to have someone in my life by now that is hard to deal with. I thought I was going to be so much further in life by now in the family aspect. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for the most part. I have a house, a nice car, and a career that I love. I make great money and I can pretty much do anything I want, anytime I want. My married friends all say that I am living the good life, but I see that the grass is greener. Single life? Really? Ok yes, there are girls that want to fuck me, and I can call them up for a booty call anytime I want.... but that's not what I want. I don't even like going down that road because then I feel used and even more alone than before they called me.
My head reels from all of the thoughts of the failed relationships. Maybe if I hadn't been so picky? What really bothers me is when I go out grocery shopping and I see some white trash guy, who doesn't even looked showered, and he has a girl by his side. How is it that this guy has someone and I don't? But then I think about it. I could easily get someone and settle down with them, but it would be just that... settling. I don't...no...I WILL NOT settle for someone. The right girl is out there somewhere. I just wish she would get here soon.
It isn't the not having someone in my life that is hard to deal with, it is the knowing that I wanted to have someone in my life by now that is hard to deal with. I thought I was going to be so much further in life by now in the family aspect. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for the most part. I have a house, a nice car, and a career that I love. I make great money and I can pretty much do anything I want, anytime I want. My married friends all say that I am living the good life, but I see that the grass is greener. Single life? Really? Ok yes, there are girls that want to fuck me, and I can call them up for a booty call anytime I want.... but that's not what I want. I don't even like going down that road because then I feel used and even more alone than before they called me.
My head reels from all of the thoughts of the failed relationships. Maybe if I hadn't been so picky? What really bothers me is when I go out grocery shopping and I see some white trash guy, who doesn't even looked showered, and he has a girl by his side. How is it that this guy has someone and I don't? But then I think about it. I could easily get someone and settle down with them, but it would be just that... settling. I don't...no...I WILL NOT settle for someone. The right girl is out there somewhere. I just wish she would get here soon.