i am most certainly NOT KEEN on this weather. last night there was a beautiful storm with lightening n all, and now its grey and warm. 
i dont like it.
i also dont like the fact that boy is working til 8pm, which means I have ALL DAY to kill in his house..i've watched movies, I've eaten toast, I've watched porn
(say no more) I'm...
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i dont like it.
i also dont like the fact that boy is working til 8pm, which means I have ALL DAY to kill in his house..i've watched movies, I've eaten toast, I've watched porn
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oh you guys are the best for supportive and/or irrelevant comments 
saw Dad on Friday. see...the first time I saw him, he was worse than I'd expected. But yesterday, I was expecting him to be worse than he was. understand? He recognised me, and this time, Boy came with me. and he recognised him too. we spent around 2 hours there, at the hospice, in...
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saw Dad on Friday. see...the first time I saw him, he was worse than I'd expected. But yesterday, I was expecting him to be worse than he was. understand? He recognised me, and this time, Boy came with me. and he recognised him too. we spent around 2 hours there, at the hospice, in...
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ruby_slipups:
aww hun, at least he wasnt worse than ud thought he would be...
n its good that uve got ur boy there for support n u dont have to go through it all alone either.
so wanna see pics of ur new hair
n its good that uve got ur boy there for support n u dont have to go through it all alone either.
so wanna see pics of ur new hair
ricksnake:
Cigars are good! They don't do anything bad to your health unless you inhale it! I'm glad he recognized you and your boy. It's nice to put in some last good memories. It's great that you're feeling better.
I got a dog this past weekend guess how that went? You thought my cat story was funny! CAT & DOG all weekend TOGETHER! My dog is nice and just wants to play but my cat wants to fight and let the dog know that this is her territory. I'd tell you everything that happend but it would probably take up too much room on your page. You'd probably think it's not that interesting.
How's work been? Any advancments?
I got a dog this past weekend guess how that went? You thought my cat story was funny! CAT & DOG all weekend TOGETHER! My dog is nice and just wants to play but my cat wants to fight and let the dog know that this is her territory. I'd tell you everything that happend but it would probably take up too much room on your page. You'd probably think it's not that interesting.
How's work been? Any advancments?
a little update for anyone who might be reading this rubbish I spew with frightening frequency about my dad: I'm going to see him tomorrow. He's been moved to a hospice. And yes, a hospice is where you go to die. 
I knew this was coming, its just weird kinda saying it....it makes it all the more real. But my boy is coming with me,...
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I knew this was coming, its just weird kinda saying it....it makes it all the more real. But my boy is coming with me,... Read More
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hotaru_____:
Sending my love sweetie x *hugs*
rdpixie:
Red is the bestest! Wanna see!
Sending lots of supportive thoughts I know it must have been hard today but I'm sure your boy was a lot of help. I hope you are ok.
Sending lots of supportive thoughts I know it must have been hard today but I'm sure your boy was a lot of help. I hope you are ok.
hm... today..I..sunbanbathed. for like..26 minutes, and then got too hot and too bored. I was wriggling around self conciously in my back garden whilst my kid sister erected the biggest fucking tent I have EVER seen. Seriously. it had like..and entrance hall and 2 bedrooms. its an excessive amount of tent. its the kinda tent you couldnt take to festivals cuz it'd take up half...
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rdpixie:
Oh my god when is it going to cool down?!?! Waaaaa!
ricksnake:
I like chasing wet pussy! My wife thinks it was funny too!
Have you ever gone to a store that you think something would be at but when you get there it's not there? So you think of another store that you know it would be there and when you get there it's not there either. Then you start a mission of going to every store in the area looking for one stupid thing. Sometimes you find it and sometimes you don't.
Have you ever gone to a store that you think something would be at but when you get there it's not there? So you think of another store that you know it would be there and when you get there it's not there either. Then you start a mission of going to every store in the area looking for one stupid thing. Sometimes you find it and sometimes you don't.
i wanted to thank everyone for their sweet words and hugs 
my life is kinda bumbling along at the moment, in limbo (and not in a limbo-SG kinda way either )
I'm not sure how to feel or what to say...
I have good hours and bad hours. Last night I cried til I shook and my boy held me til I stopped. What a...
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my life is kinda bumbling along at the moment, in limbo (and not in a limbo-SG kinda way either
)
I'm not sure how to feel or what to say...
I have good hours and bad hours. Last night I cried til I shook and my boy held me til I stopped. What a...
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clearbrightfire:
sorry to hear about your fathers illness,sometimes loving people can be far too painful
ricksnake:
You seem a little more cheerful! I know you're still sad and I'm happy you're making it through this.
Last night I saw Sin City for the first time. Everyone told me it was going to suck but I actually liked it. I also saw the new Pirates movie and that was good too!
How's your normal life going? Been doing anything to keep your mind off of things?
Last night I saw Sin City for the first time. Everyone told me it was going to suck but I actually liked it. I also saw the new Pirates movie and that was good too!
How's your normal life going? Been doing anything to keep your mind off of things?
so I finally got to see my dad on wednesday. He looked much worse than I though he would - and to me, it showed the fast progression - or decay - of him and his mind.
2 and a half weeks ago he was basically fine, he'd been to a business meeting, he'd gone on a five-mile walk.. then one morning he woke up...
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2 and a half weeks ago he was basically fine, he'd been to a business meeting, he'd gone on a five-mile walk.. then one morning he woke up...
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rdpixie:
Oh hun I dont think there are any comforting words I can give right now its all so very sudden. Lots and lots of hugs and of course if you need anything here in Pompey or just wanna meet up and chat to someone I'm here!
spamtwo:
*hug*
something my mother decided to omit whilst giving me the news over the phone. Whilst I thought this tumour had been caught early, and therefore was fixable, apparently it is not.
The doctors have described it as 'a large, inoperable tumour' which for some unknown reason went undetected. The biopsy results will give us an 'X-amount time left to live'.
I wish it was me...
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The doctors have described it as 'a large, inoperable tumour' which for some unknown reason went undetected. The biopsy results will give us an 'X-amount time left to live'.
I wish it was me...
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ricksnake:
Sad to hear! Sorry you have to go through that. Losing a loved one sucks! Just remember the good times.
How's everything else going? We havn't talked in a while!
How's everything else going? We havn't talked in a while!
capnfloyd:
Hey, add my hugs and positive vibes to the mix. A couple thoughts...
I've been in medicine for a while and I've never given anyone a "you have ____ to live" statement. Don't think they're worth much, and they're often wrong except in the very short term. Be here now. While he's here, he's here.
And, I know it's hard, but don't dive too deeply into thinking about what you might have done better. This was a trap I had to avoid when someone close to me died a while back. Consider it, learn from it, get back to, well, being here.
Just some thoughts, chica. Do with 'em what you will. take care...
I've been in medicine for a while and I've never given anyone a "you have ____ to live" statement. Don't think they're worth much, and they're often wrong except in the very short term. Be here now. While he's here, he's here.
And, I know it's hard, but don't dive too deeply into thinking about what you might have done better. This was a trap I had to avoid when someone close to me died a while back. Consider it, learn from it, get back to, well, being here.
Just some thoughts, chica. Do with 'em what you will. take care...
well. Fate deals a cruel hand, doesn't it? After being so pleased that I'd finished this photobook to send to my dad, as a belated Father's Day present, I received a phone call last night. My dad has been diagnosed as having a brain tumour.
The two strokes he's had in the past 6 months, and his memory-loss now make sense. The fact that this...
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The two strokes he's had in the past 6 months, and his memory-loss now make sense. The fact that this...
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well this threatened loss of net hasn't happened yet.. Which is a damn good thing cuz at 7:55a.m this morning, I got a text from Miss Anarchie telling me her luchadora set was up! Oh its so perfect!! 
She's a Mexican wrestling goddess!! (go see, its so cool!) God that girl is awesome..
Must go buy more seamed stockings now. My vice is proving expensive......
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She's a Mexican wrestling goddess!! (go see, its so cool!) God that girl is awesome..
Must go buy more seamed stockings now. My vice is proving expensive......
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anarchie:
Oh you, you lovely thing you. I'll CRUSH you with my mighty wrestling powers 
oh i am NOT a happy bunny. My stepdad has just sprung it on me that as of tomorrow, we're changing internet service providers..which apparently means our internet might be down for up to a week. so fear not. I am not dead, merely planning my stepfather's untimely (and gruesome) demise..
I shall love you, miss you, and stab him an extra time through...
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I shall love you, miss you, and stab him an extra time through...
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cheesy:
Oh that Eye Candy pic folder you have.
cheesy:
I had to have my nipple piercing cut out hence having the stiches. Twas much fun.
Wedding
so. I just got home (we arrived back last night) from Ireland..The trip seemed to start fairly smoothly (although rushing to the shops to buy last minute things..y'know..like a suit for Matt, proved stressful as my boy HATES shopping, of any kind) but still..
we made it to the train..which was an un-air conditioned journey to Hell lasting a blood boiling hour. When we... Read More
hotaru_____:
I'm glad the wedding went well!! I'm a typical girlie and love weddings! Can't wait for my own, but that will be a while yet ;D
Hope the journey home wasn't as bad as getting there. Once something bad happens, everything else seems to just go wrong!
Hope the journey home wasn't as bad as getting there. Once something bad happens, everything else seems to just go wrong!
rdpixie:
Irish wedding are always fun glad you had a good time!
The beater looks fantastic - so wanna get me one of those!
The beater looks fantastic - so wanna get me one of those!
baking ???