hey kids, sorry I haven't been on a lot lately, lots of craziness lots of changes, lifes been moving along pretty fast, Been sort of out of the loop on everything lately. Not that life moving real fast or nay of the changes are bad. In fact I'd say they're good, when I don't have the time to sit around and think about shit I...
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somewhat_damaged:
Hey i live in COLORADO TO....
ziggs:
good to hear life is treating u well. i can understand the whole life is going fast thing. kind of the same thing here. keep strong man...
Things have slowed down a bit, and gotten a little routine again. I hate the routine, the routine chokes you. It gives me too much time to think about shit and get upset about it or restless. The restlessness is a killer, feeling like you should be doing something or trying to change what you don't like about your life but having know idea how...
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samanthakayne:
hey kid - you doin casa bonita with us on monday?
m_bethany:
i have been a home body too, but in my own apartment so I guess I have an atvantage there.
Cool, just enjoy it and, when you feel like going out, embrace it.
~the angel*
Cool, just enjoy it and, when you feel like going out, embrace it.
~the angel*
I think four words can sum up how I'm feeling lately:The worst is over. Of course I could be wrong but only time will tell. My life still seems really crazy right now, but oh well, it's more interesting that way I suppose. So there's really nothing to do now but just keep on living. I'm not so worried anymore, but that too could just...
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ziggs:
Man, u should have gone to the SGB. o jesus, it was unbelievable.
txakurgorri:
captknutz,
Thank you for the group and the ability to talk about everthing.
Maybe someday, the sun will shine again for longer than a day.
Txakur Gorri
Thank you for the group and the ability to talk about everthing.
Maybe someday, the sun will shine again for longer than a day.
Txakur Gorri
slow day, Got all worried for a while because I thought the ex took the kids and split, to my relief she just wasn't answering her phone for some reason.
So bored tonight, Jessica is away on one of her many scams. She is scandulous, what can I say, but we're often scandulous together, So with that I'm starting to feel like a character from...
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So bored tonight, Jessica is away on one of her many scams. She is scandulous, what can I say, but we're often scandulous together, So with that I'm starting to feel like a character from...
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apontes29:
shit man............i wish i had words to help you out.....but i dont. people tell me time will make things better...it willl all work out in the end.............sometimes i wish i could do serious harm to them when they say those things...just keep venting when you need to... dont lock up any of those feelings.... there.....those where my words... i hoped they helped some.....into the void is such a good song too.....
ziggs:
Man, u know what? someday, u will feel better about this. True, those horrific images will never leave u, but because of their influence on ur life, u will become a better person somehow. Everything in life has a purpose. U will find this one soon enough.
weekend update: Finished the divorce on thursday, got real trashed that night. Jessica moved in yesterday, and today we redecorated the house and are panning on having a great drunken time later on.
So thing are coming along ok I suppose, things will definately be easier to maage with jessica in the house, now I just need a fuckin girlfreind.
So thing are coming along ok I suppose, things will definately be easier to maage with jessica in the house, now I just need a fuckin girlfreind.
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samanthakayne:
hey - glad to hear it's final... that's a huge step, kiddo.
apontes29:
hey CAPTKNUTZ,
thanks for welcoming me to the group.......glad to hear you are getting through alright...or as best as you can. it certainly is one of the hardest things i have ever dealt with..i cant believe others go through it too....go get drunk....find a girl who is good for you....
thanks for welcoming me to the group.......glad to hear you are getting through alright...or as best as you can. it certainly is one of the hardest things i have ever dealt with..i cant believe others go through it too....go get drunk....find a girl who is good for you....
random lines from random songs flash through my head like big bright neon signs. The two that are going through my head the most are one from a Henry Rollins song: "You secretly win every time that ya lose, when you're passive aggressive, distortion blues" and one from an Alkaline trio: "it's kinda funny how something so soothing could be interupted by the ring of...
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ziggs:
It's amazing how women have such a hold on our psyches as men. We don't like to admit to it or we may not realize it at all, but women control us so much. we'd live, die, and kill for the right one. strange how it works
bankerboy:
Here are lyrics for you: "heavy words are so lightly thrown."
I know the feeling all too well. Hope you are doing ok, I read your posts in the divorce group.
Take care,
bb
I know the feeling all too well. Hope you are doing ok, I read your posts in the divorce group.
Take care,
bb
4 or 5 days of false enlightenment, and then I am dumped back down into the depths of hell. you think you're really starting to get better and then it feels like you heave just had all the air vaccuumed out of your lungs.
I keep finding myself playing the part of gatsby from fitzgeralds' great american tale, which btw no one other than me...
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I keep finding myself playing the part of gatsby from fitzgeralds' great american tale, which btw no one other than me...
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7deadlycyns:
Oh well shit, I'm not real good at posting pics 
schoolgirl:
those fight club meetings probably aren't half bad. at least they got to hug and have human contact.
Went to a show last night, ok but not really my cup of tea. At least I got out though I suppose. Tonight I shall sleep, although I am feeling rather restless now being home from work. I am still rather overwhelmed by this restlessness, lonliness, odd contentedness, occasional depression, exhaustion etc.
Anyways other than that got paid so I'm not quite as poor. Picked...
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Anyways other than that got paid so I'm not quite as poor. Picked...
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schoolgirl:
i am so glad you started the divorce group. we need to spread the word. i told two people to join already. awesome way for us to support each other.
samanthakayne:
hey - glad you like cursive - i've only got the one album myself, and it's a burn, lol.
Leisurely day. Went to my moms for bbq. Ate a lot watched movies. Enjoyed the drive home although the spring and summer isn't quite the same when you're single. Not how I remember anyway. The thing I did the other day, I think it did some good. Stil having a little trouble letting go of it all(being angry, hating, the wishful thinking) but I'm making...
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kira:
that's better than any girl in the world... 
kira:
hey that's what we're here for, right...oh yeah and the naked pics... 
Slighty fucked up right now. But its all good. Gotta get up early and go to work tommorow but I don't really care. Drinking a german wine and eating toast. quite good. Tonight was a celebration, cause today I finally buried my old wedding ring and all the hatred and bullshit that I was feeling with it. The hate was eating me up, killling me....
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kira:
thanks for the welcome...i haven't gotten to look at the group in detail but i plan on it very soon...
chrisnail_and_i:
Hi! 
Thanks for the welcome to the group. Haven't posted to it yet but you can count on it. When it comes to this subject, I've got lots to say! 
Thanks for the welcome to the group. Haven't posted to it yet but you can count on it. When it comes to this subject, I've got lots to say! So right now the quote that comes to mind is: "Lonliness, is such a drag" Jimi Hendrix, from the burning of the midnight lamp. I keep having these terrible nightmare in which I'm the vilain and am doing horrible things.(mostly killing or attempting to kill people, in very terrible ways I might add) I am shaken awake from the sheer horror. I don't know what...
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chris_sick:
right now a real job(the editor comment was referring to the website i'm starting) would be a start. unemployment's a bitch.
chris_sick:
yeah, i got an unemployment check for a more tahn i deserved so i now i have no job and i owe uenmployment money.
So the highlight of the day was driving down academy blvd at sunset jammng Joy division:Transmission. So yeah it was a pretty boring day. Quiting smoking today, not by choice, but because I have no money for cigs. 
I love to smoke. Oh well!!! Anyways when will I find an amazing girl who can make me forget about everything???? No time soon obviously.
Song of...
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I love to smoke. Oh well!!! Anyways when will I find an amazing girl who can make me forget about everything???? No time soon obviously.
Song of...
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samanthakayne:
ahh, here's to good driving music. joy division, one of my all-time faves. 'she's lost control' is occasionally my theme song, though i count it as more of a warning.
how soon is now... damn, if that doesn't bring back some memories...
how soon is now... damn, if that doesn't bring back some memories...
chriskaasi:
Hey buddy -- sorry I haven't had a chance to write back yet. I've been busy. I'll check out the newest installation of the story and get back to you soon.
Gotta run --
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Gotta run --
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