the following is a slice from an old spoken word piece of mine...seemed fitting:
...So Ill live in this hell
Until
They find that perfect pill
To contain me
And restrain me
And ascertain what may be
The problem here
Whats her deal?!
Whats she got to be so sad about anyway?
Huh.
Let me know when you've got THAT answer
But that would require reaching within
And Im not so sure
I am interested in
All the shit
Thats buried beneath this skin
It is buried for a reason
And I have got this feeling
(yeah I still sometimes get glimpses of those)
That whatever it is I am hiding from
Would only send me reeling
Further away from any sense of reality
And while I am not holding much
Of that to begin with
It occurs to me that I should salvage
What little I have to contend with
If we really got to the bottom of this
I feel rather secure in saying
We had all better figure out the strategy
In this game we are playing
Because it truly seems endless
And the circles we keep running around
Have left me feeling desperate
Lost inside your underground
There has got to be some relief man
Some closing to this season
It has been winter far too long here
And I have dropped way below freezing...
just look dead ahead and make the rest of the world think you are in control
better service
less smiles
better service
and I drive like a devil on a leash
...So Ill live in this hell
Until
They find that perfect pill
To contain me
And restrain me
And ascertain what may be
The problem here
Whats her deal?!
Whats she got to be so sad about anyway?
Huh.
Let me know when you've got THAT answer
But that would require reaching within
And Im not so sure
I am interested in
All the shit
Thats buried beneath this skin
It is buried for a reason
And I have got this feeling
(yeah I still sometimes get glimpses of those)
That whatever it is I am hiding from
Would only send me reeling
Further away from any sense of reality
And while I am not holding much
Of that to begin with
It occurs to me that I should salvage
What little I have to contend with
If we really got to the bottom of this
I feel rather secure in saying
We had all better figure out the strategy
In this game we are playing
Because it truly seems endless
And the circles we keep running around
Have left me feeling desperate
Lost inside your underground
There has got to be some relief man
Some closing to this season
It has been winter far too long here
And I have dropped way below freezing...
(edited to add this... )
[Edited on Jun 18, 2004 4:35PM]
better service
less smiles
better service
and I drive like a devil on a leash