armrebecca

Thank you for your comment. Its really something, let me tell you, to see how many people have been reading my journals and can see PAST all the words that I write-- to see that what I'm telling is my actual life. I've tried to keep away from the glamourous words, and the complete suck-ass words, if that's possible. Really, this is a day to fucking day journey for me.
Being in AA has never been threatening to me, though I am aware that the whole "God thing" can sometimes be intimidating as some members like to shove that idea into the forground. What I believe-- is that yes, you do need to have a Higher Power, but it doesn't have to be God Himself. It can be the tree outside of your bedroom window-- just *something* that you can look to to calm you down, to talk to, etc. I've settled on my High Power being "All that is Love" because it's the strongest of our emotions. I try to think with it, speak with it, act with it. And when things go wrong, "What would LOVE do?"

The DaVinci Code, to me, took me to a world where I was CONSUMED by everything that the book had to offer. I've taken many French classes (in high school) and was familiar with the language and the country. I've also been an art student for the major part of my education (not a MAJOR of mine, but trust me, I'm schooled)-- so I was able to brush up on my Leonardo and found myself reading and turning to Google to look at paintings again to refresh my memory. Also, growing up with a religious education also helped. A lot. I've always had an open mind to Catholicism, and was familiar enough with the POINT of this book and knew about the controversy that it caused. It was, overall, a beautiful concerpt twisting around a "thriller/mysetery" sort of theme to keep the book moving along and was never boring. I read it in about a day and a half-- the first time that I've read so passionately in about 6 years... so not only did reading the book take me somewhere ELSE, it took me somewhere WITHIN MYSELF that I was able to explore.