Things have not been looking up.
My depression and anxiety have been becoming increasingly unbearable with each passing day.
I can not walk to class without becoming claustrophobic because of all the people around me.
My chest is always tight, I'm always shaking,my stomach is always in knots, and my... Read More
First off, you CAN have a good life. Losing hope on that or finding it an impossibility can only hurt you in the long run.
I remember grappling with a lot of the same problems when I first moved out, ESPECIALLY the frustration of not having time or a space to be alone. I think we're similar in the fact that we'll live in our heads when we go through depression or rough patches, and from all the internal dwelling, the anxiety builds and you feel like you're going to explode. Not fun.
Keep your chin up, sweetheart. Try not to be weighed down by pain..it doesn't mean anything in the long run. I know it's hard, you feel alone, and the added problem of depression and anxiety can only stand to make it even more difficult. But don't EVER give up. You're alive, and you can do anything you want.
So never mind what other people would or might do in your situation, what you think is expected of you, or even what Travis says you might like...what do YOU want? I'm sincerely hoping that things will get better, dear. And if I can help in ANY way...
i could tell you that i know how you feel, but i know feeling that way well enough to know that theres a good chance you wouldnt believe me. i know that 90% of what you said sounds like the thoughts in my head and while talking about it has never "made me feel better," at the very least somebody understanding those feelings makes me feel slightly less crazy.
plus, i see that you are from danville, and as somebody who loved there for a while (worst part of my life, bar none) i can understand how that can make anyone hate life.
anyways, i know im a fucking stranger but if you want an ear, im willing.
I just got off the phone with Travis. We had been talking about me catching a ride with one of his friends to go see him this weekend (this had been HIS idea by the way!)
When I call him, he tells me that he had been talking to his roomate (I hate it when people ask the opinion of someone who hasn't even met... Read More
I hate when people tell me what I need to be happy. The lack of understanding or regard for difference in perspective can be quite irritating.
I don't think you need to be in large social situation to have fun. Frankly, they make me uncomfortable too most of the time. What's wrong with a small, personal, intimate group of friends?
It doesn't sound like a very fair situation. Hoping the best, sweetheart.
just be open minded. i felt a bit like you when I started college, but eventually I started getting older and I was experiencing new things - looking back I was having the time of my life. I saw a lot of changes in myself because I opened myself up
I'd say it's about time for an update. Much has happened since my last update.
I moved into my dorm Thursday. It's quite cozy. I've put up most of my posters, except for Bettie Page, cause that's gonna be a pain in the ass. Will do eventually.
I met my roomate. She's cute, but very "preppy" (for lack of a better word). She's an arcitect... Read More
Its good that you are trying to resolve the issues....even when they are in the past....so many people just tuck them away and hold on to them for so long.....its self-destructive.
I had a nice time in Boston, Massachusetts. The drive up there was hellacious! 19 hours!!! GRARG! Mr. "I never catch other people's colds" got my cold and was sick the entire time we were up there. I didn't feel terrible, but not great either. His mom's car broke down, so we stayed an extra day, which was nice... Read More
I've been sick for the past couple days with a cold. The kind that makes your head feel as if it is made of mucous! I'm better now though, Travis stayed with me for a couple days... we watched LOTR, cuddled and talked sweetly to each other. I've had a worse time while sick.
I got my roomate information yesterday, and I was trying... Read More
I had a lot of trouble with my roommates when I moved into the dorms freshman year. Just keep being yourself and do what you've always done. They'll come around eventually.
Or have a nervous breakdown because they can't 'purify' you.
Travis and I are taking some time to be seclusive. We both are fairly introverted people who like to be alone sometimes. We have been spending a lot of time together, which is great, don't get me wrong. But I woke up today feelinng very anxious, and was quite glad when I dropped him off at his house. I need a few hours to... Read More
So... I am back from Freshman Orientation at good ole' VT.
Here's a basic outline of the events.
We got there a day before, and I met Travis's friend Max. Travis came with us so he could visit Max. We all walked on this trail in the middle of nowhere that night at like 11. It was so much fun! We found some abondoned buildings... Read More
I love pancakes.....and I wish that the feelings you have for him I could have......havent felt that way about someone in years......I am so happy for you.....and the girl, well she isnt mine....but I will tell her you thought she was pretty. Have a great weekend.
Ok, so I'm not typically one to be like "OMG Drama", but I'm so pissed off and disgusted right now that I feel as if I will explode if I don't get some of this off my chest.
Ok, so two weeks ago, I broke up with Mark, my boyfriend of two years. My reasons being that we couldn't communicate (in other words, he wouldn't... Read More
I remember grappling with a lot of the same problems when I first moved out, ESPECIALLY the frustration of not having time or a space to be alone. I think we're similar in the fact that we'll live in our heads when we go through depression or rough patches, and from all the internal dwelling, the anxiety builds and you feel like you're going to explode. Not fun.
Keep your chin up, sweetheart. Try not to be weighed down by pain..it doesn't mean anything in the long run. I know it's hard, you feel alone, and the added problem of depression and anxiety can only stand to make it even more difficult. But don't EVER give up. You're alive, and you can do anything you want.
So never mind what other people would or might do in your situation, what you think is expected of you, or even what Travis says you might like...what do YOU want? I'm sincerely hoping that things will get better, dear. And if I can help in ANY way...
plus, i see that you are from danville, and as somebody who loved there for a while (worst part of my life, bar none) i can understand how that can make anyone hate life.
anyways, i know im a fucking stranger but if you want an ear, im willing.