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tonkakatt:
5ft 2. although I'd love to be taller
jennynicole:
... I'm going through my own little slice of hell right now. There haven't been five tear-free minutes since 5pm when I got out of school.. She's driving out here though, I guess I finally made her feel bad. Maybe it was the fact that she couldn't hear my voice over the sobs. Yea, you have no clue how fucking pathetic I can be. And don't tease me... you know I'd fall for you if you were my booty call. And yea, you could play me.. I'd let you do whatever. That's what I'm best at. Falling for people, believing that humans are good at heart by nature, and letting them walk all over me.
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Last night was pretty fucking cool. Out with the boys, Snakebites and a fuck load of Ozzy. We were playing bumper cars on the way home. Slamming into eachother as we went down the road. Not in my fucking Firebird of course. Some damage to the cars, fucking up cars while drunk is great fun. I have to get to work....L8er....AJ
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devil_bitch:
I work for Citibank now. Oh yes The Man indeed has me further in it's clutches. Hangin with the peeps. Drinking and crashing shit. Sounds like good times. I will post pics of the ink when I get color.

tonkakatt:
my sets don't come every day ya know. I really need to find that time to size edit that one with Janeen and post that one. I had so much fun that day.
and we'll see about another one too.
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I had to call the ex to make sure she sent in the auto insurance payment. She sounded all happy and stress free. She even changed the message on her cell phone. It doesn't even sound like her.
What did I expect? I don't know, her to sound down and depressed. I had a bad day yesterday. I wasn't missing her, I just realized how...
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jennynicole:
... I'm not sure what to say besides thank you. Honestly that was the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me. You know the grimiest ugliest parts of me, and you still don't wanna fuckin change me. I dunno... trying to realize that maybe I'm ok as I am. I just wanna fuckin hug you so bad right now.


On a side note.. lyrics in my journal were of course NIN, "The Collector", With Teeth. I listened to Kittie yesterday and actually let out a little bit of bottled up emotion. Then at the concert I fucking let out a shitload of emotions.. which I don't usually do.. but it was awesome. I know you don't like NIN.. I can't help it though.. they're my guilty pleasure.. well.. right after you of course. I love ya dear and I'll talk to you later.

kiss
JennIFER
lovely:
Just for fun... It would be nice though if it was for a living. I do enough of em. Its just that Denver photographers are way to cheap... whatever
XOXO
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Well, on my fucking day off I went out and did what set out to do. I bought a bottle of 1800 and drank it down with a friend of mine. After awhile the fucker lost his mind and wanted to walk home. A friend in AA came pulling up and brought the asshole back. He would have froze to death trying to walk home...
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jennynicole:
.. I love her and I know she loves me. And you and I both know I'm not strong enough to be on my own. You would hear me more pathetic than you could ever fucking imagine if we split. I know it sounds shitty, but most of the time I don't feel like I'm settling. It's just those moments that get to me.. the ones when I just need her. I just need to be weak for a moment now and then and I want her to hold me up. Life isn't like that though. There's not ever gonna be a moment that its convenient or okay for me to fall apart. As much as I may feel like I need to, I can't. I just need to fucking suck it up and get over it that I accepted my role as the strong one and now I need to live up to it and stop wanting her to be something she's not. She isn't the one who's gonna support me, and maybe its not a bad thing.. maybe its supposed to teach me that I CAN be the strong one that holds it all together. I dunno.. I'm rambling. sorry. You know who loves ya, and hopefully we'll get to talk soon. miss you kiss
abyssia:
i was gonna say something but fuck it - we spoke, i've got a migraine and i know you'll call. sometime.... maybe one day you'll pick me up and we'll go for a drive. i hope i typed it all ok with eyes closed.
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OKay, so, I finally got the computer hooked up and back online. Fucking yeah, I moved out. She wanted me gone and now we have both gone our seperate ways. Ackkkk, Seperate Ways..isn't that a fucking Journey song? ....shhhh Journey, guilty fucking pleasure.
Anyway I've been apartment hunting in downtown Lancaster for a place. My friend and co-worker Matt is telling me I can hang...
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bloodbunny:
Glad you're back! Sorry to hear you had such a rough breakup after 6 years...enjoy your singleness....but all relationships aren't bad. Just because you had one end badly, doesn't mean you should shy away from another one if someone else comes along smile
tonkakatt:
I have the same problem....just kidding!
(ok, maybe only kidding a little bit)

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I'm packing, I'm leaving, give me a couple days, I'll see you all soon...L8er...AJ
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jennynicole:
You know just getting offline can't stop me from buggin ya. lol, and don't worry I hide my sex toys so mom didn't find em cleaning my room. The 13 inch black dildo with your name on it was safely hidden away. lmao. you know i'm just kidding. loves ya! kiss
luna13:
Yup! smile
Thanks.
I love the way it looks, but I hate the damn cold!
I want warmth!!! Gimme summer!
Yeah me too, finally a place to call home.
Missed you too! So where've you been?
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So myself and my friend Matt decide to go bar hopping yesterday. Yesterday is a bit of a blur. A few drinks here and there. Matt decided to do the driving. ON the fucking way back Kristen pulls up alongside of us. I'm yelling out the window for her to call me to maybe hang out Later on that night. Well, fucking Matt decides to...
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tonkakatt:
obviously I'm not dealing very well. its been several months since my divorce, and I'm a drunken mess 2 -5 days a week. I don't socialize too much. and what pathetic attempts I've made at getting together have led me me being blown off or stood up...3 nights in a row last week. how's that for the esteem!

but enough about me.
luna13:
smile indeed...
Pobably twoo then cuz one tends to get lonely.
I would like to have a pet, preferably a dog, but my boyfriend thinks they smell too much frown
So no dog for me boohoo...
I like cats too, but I once had one and she was a total bitch!
So I'm scared I'm just unlucky when picking out a cat or something... She seemed so cute when she was a kitten *sigh*

Anywho, I still have a guinea pig namd Yamcha, and he is very old, so the last years/months/days I want just him, so I can give him my full attention smile
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WEll her and I are officially done. Fuck it, it was a long time in the coming. I'm not going to get into it right now. I'm just going to get trashed and check the paper for a new home. She can keep this place and everything in it. The only thing I ever need to take with me are my clothes, my books and...
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tonkakatt:
first off I'm not hott, hahahaha, and second girls like me do like guys like you. unless thats not really you in those pictures and you're really some 3 ft troll with acne and no teeth.
anny:
Shit like that seems to happen a lot around Valentines Day, seems to drive the point home that things aren't right. It sucks, but it sounds like you are ready to do what you need to be free and not get hung up on shit about moving. Hope it works out for you.

Thanks for supporting that chick you were talking about. Maybe she was too ashamed to have visitors. Who knows. Making the attempt to connect is better than ignoring.
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So I might have been a bit of a prick this Valentines day though I couldn't hold it in any longer. My best girl has it all, DVDs all she wants, DVRs, Stereo's, computers, books, video games, PS2s and she hasn't done a fucking thing around here in three weeks. I got her out of bed and made her take care of the animals she...
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ragdollsmile:
Why was it such a bad time? Do tell.
aj_paradiselost:
Well, I guess her and I are done. She has been talking to some guy in the area on the computer. I came home early and she quickly clicked off and shredded the recent history on the computer right in front of my face. That kind of shit is unforgivable to me. Emotional and psychological cheating is just as bad to me as physical cheating. Granted, I am on SG but I don't look for people to chat with who live up the fucking street. She says hes an admirer and that she is confused.
I told her to go with it man. I don't deal well with bullshit. Anyway, this time there will be no reconciliation. This isn't like the usual boyfriend girlfriend crap. This is unforgivable totally.........Enough of my ranting..........L8er..........AJ
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So my guitar Theory Instructor just split. Today it was on Scales used by the Japanese for in music for centuries. Fucking christ, reading this shit blows ass, but one gets stagnant and has to fucking mix it up sometimes.
I dug my Firebird out, the other firebird is still buried. Fuck it, I'll let the sun thaw that one out. Fucking snow blows. I'm...
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luna13:
Hehehe, yeah I am, and now I am broek AND jobless. frown
Actually that mess of boxes comes in quite handy, cuz now you can''t even see if I cleaned up the place or not, so I can just slack it tongue
Moving actually doesn't suck. We went to our new place yesterday to measure the rooms and OMG it is the greatest place EVER! We are both so much in love with it, I might actually be happy there and start loving Rotterdam as my home... wink
The diner was great and I had a nice white sweet wine, since that is the only kind I drink wink

kiss
tonkakatt:
have I told you how much I love the way you think?
you seem to put word to my thoughts & emotion.
god damn I need you to translate my life.