After 18 years of marriage to the woman that I consider an absolute angel, we are getting divorced. I don't know what hurts more, the divorce, or the knowledge that I caused it. She is my souldmate, and I lost that. How do you move on when the only person in your life that makes you happy hates you? How do you forgive yourself when she won't? I have gone through most of my life devoid of real emotions, aside from my love for her, now I feel everything, and it only takes a word from her to destroy me. How do you keep picking yourself up?