wildseven

i dont think you should stew,let them all out!! fuck it, its your blog, if you want to write how you feel them you're following the instructions perfectly.
i know what you mean about people "utterly enjoying their carfree 20's!", im jealous of these people. closest i got was in college (cos i discovered drink) but even then i took on as much responsibilty as possible so my wee head would cave in. you shouldnt worry so much about not living your life how other people seem to live theres (maybe you dont, that just the impression i get), but insead live it how you want to live it. so far you seem to be making pretty good steps to this. even if you dont know what it is exactly that you want, knowing what you dont want is also a big help.
as for close personal relationships, i cant tell you anything, i fell head first into one when i least expected, or wanted, to. from what i hear that's not unusual.

I think a lot of people use sex as a vent for their pent up emotions but in a way it's just like self-harm, it doesn't break the cycle, it just perpetuates it. Besides, this is the wrong reason to have sex. Everyone is made up of different components and not everyone's composite ages are gonna correlate to their physical age, we all mature in different ways at different rates. The topic about where emotion goes if it has no outlet is a complicated one, too complicated to mention here. My friend from my last college was 19 when she got married (to an 18yr old) but I liked her even though her fiancee was the second thing she mentioned to me...ugh.... I console myself by thinking of all the opportunities they've missed out on by doing such a thing. I always wonder what the point is to making any effort whatsoever to my appearance when I step out the door and the only reason to step out of the door currently is to get my arse off to uni, given that a) no one there's gonna pay me any compliment b) there's no one I'm trying to impress there and c) why should I even both washing or wearing anything cool, I haven't washed for the last 4 weeks and really don't want to either, I'm not even itchy, it's weird.

"I've been screwed over because of my morals a lot, but i won't change them because i'm incredibly stubborn" I think we'll get on very well sir.

Your honesty is very refreshing!

Whoopeeeee the mighty Sir Wild is coming to London!

*bounces*

*bounces, skips and headbangs simultaneously*

So I see your blog is getting the solar/lunar treatment as well! I love the idea of your daily photo diary thing. They always tend to be interesting when you line up the photos all together, can be really candid, express more than words possibly can. I hope you keep it up. Well I guess even the off days when you can't bear to do a self-portrait would say so much through the very absence. And you do have a story to tell- your life. Don't ever thing for one minute that other people's lives are more wild than the great Sir Wild himself! Divulging the uproarious internal goings-on can be just as wild as boasting about random physical encounters. We all need a space in which we can be ourselves... these things can't be bottled up without eventually exploding. And stand proud of your atheism. I'd rather people were atheists than blindly believe in things they have had no personal experience of.

Ta for digging up He-man from my memory bank! Skeletor, now he would make a nice date me thinks.

when the auto.b is ready for publishing, i will do the cover art.

glad you had a good new years beard <3

I'm happy for you. Happy day-after New Year's!

A question... hmm.

I could go with the classic: what-are-your-penis-dimensions or what-is-your-wildest-sex-fantasy question, but I shan't bore you with such banalities.

Instead... what is your favourite flavour of gummy bears and why? What was the first video game you fell in love with? On a scale of 1-10, how's life after the changes?

(I <3 your thought sheet)

That is what I meant to say.

It was a misunderstanding having to do with money, my second biggest expenditure of the year.

Now it's cleared-up, but for a sec., I thought "OOOOHHHHHHHHHH FUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!"

Hang in the buddy. Hang in there.

all I can say is i am grateful that your new doctor seems to have more knowledge and wisdom then your last one and I hope these pills work out for you, keep your head up and never forget to smile bro, much love

Fight the good fight, my friend.

.x.

Take a deep breath and try to pick yourself up. Hugs and Kisses

in the words of Mr Rotten, 'anger is an energy', maybe if you can channel it (how new-age does that sound?!) into something productive you'll bring yourself out of it.x.
hope you feel better either way.x.

I've been trying to hail you on comms (msn). <2

HUGS!

Gawd, e-hugs are shite.

i think about this all the time...

After all the epic blogs you've written and you think this short one we'd stop halfway? the fog will pass and so will the anger. keep your dreams in your heart and you will reach them.

Best of luck buddy. You know i'm always here if you need anything.