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So I think I'm going to be ending my account very soon. The main reason why I log into SG these days is to check the news accounts of the message boards. If I can do this without having to be a member...then why the hell not.


SG played a weird role in my life. I got an account right after I turned 18 when...
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if:
Good luck!
user092840:
Bye! frown
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I just finished watching that movie JARHEAD. I gotta say, that movie filled and renewed some deep buried hole in my brain.

Masculinity.

after watching that movie I really had a lot better understanding of the brotherhood, boredom and insanity that comes with being in the military. Or I at least understand what the director wanted to show me. But I gotta tell you. There...
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merrow:
Oooo, I really want to see that movie....
posh:
i saw it yesterday, and while it had some great scenes, i just couldn't understand why it was made. i think i missed the climax or something,
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A while back I recieved one of those "Keep In Touch" high school renunion type things. Apparently they send out a little survey of "what you've been up to" since you've graduated high school.

My high school was filled with a lot of Rich, spoiled brats. That had a high enough jewish population that we got the major jewish holidays off.

This was my response:...
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missprint:
Since you are from RI:

Gogol Bordello/ Throw Rag Friday night at the Living Room. I will be there and so will lots of other SG Bostonians
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So, I'll be brief.

Mental attitude: Stable. Nervous tendancies, but nothing out of the normal. Can perform relatively well and have been relatively happy.

Scholastic Abilities: Advanced. Have been extremely busy with mid-terms, performed well, still think school is too easy (i.e. I'm fucked when I go to grad school)

Work Ethic: Satisfactory, I feel like I've become a veteran at my work and can...
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missprint:
I am always amazed by your ability to analyze yourself in such an honest and detached way.

As for going to a gym, doesn't your school have one?

I say buzz the hair kinda close, but what do I know.
missprint:
Muskrat? You silly man. She was a hamster. You'd be surprised by how much personality small animals can have.

I haven't started doing any volunteer work yet since I moved. My first priority at the moment is full time employment. I was offered a job teaching art to mentally ill adults at a non profit, but I realized it wasn't the right place for me. I am still donating a sculpture to the City Arts auction, so I'll be in Prov for that this winter.

As for the gym, I know what you mean about it being a creepy staring contest. I've pretty much gotten over it. I belong to a YMCA in the suburbs so the majority of people there are married thirty-somethings. I go every morning at the same time, so I see the same people every day. I think we're all pretty sick of looking at eachother.

Hope all is well! I will write you a real letter sometime and send you some silly crap.



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Last night I had a breakdown. It felt good.

I had been holding up probably 3 months worth of stress in my head and I finally snapped last night. I ended up ranting to my family about all the shit that I didn't like, how it had been affecting me, and how I was scared of turning into a social hermit, like I had done...
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veganvixen:
and that is why we don't pent up our emotions. i am glad u told your folks how you feel, that is important.
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I've gotten into a social rut lately.

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Example:

Them: Blah Blah Blah sincerity Blah Blah

Me: Unoriginal Akward Statement.

Them: Blah Blah, weird look, Blah Blah

Me: Spineless retreat

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I don't want to sound like I'm beating up on myself for the sake of self-loathing, because I'm not.

This is a problem. This bad habit of mine plagued me when I was in...
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missprint:
I missed your birthday!!! HAPPY FREAKIN BIRTHDAY!

You need to send me your info so I can send you crap.

Well, you're not alone in your inability to make conversation. I most come off as the most boring, uptight moron in most day-to-day conversation.
veganvixen:
it's hard to socialise with people when most of them are morons. are you depressed? cause if you are, it's not a lack of socail skills you have, it's a lack of a drive. some people are just not social alltogether, there is nothing wrong with them, they are just quite people who like there space. perhaps you need to talk to a professional, or just snap out of it. maybe you need a really good beating.
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So, I hope that no one was slitting their wrists in anticipation for how my birthday went.

It was a relaxing day off. I cleaned up the house, had some of my favorite coffee with my favorite aunt. I drove down to Beaver Tail, a costal park in RI that has tons of rock cliffs and wide open spaces with large ocean views, and with...
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lickmyink:
hey. thanks for the comment. happy belated b-day smile
~bri~
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So Two hours ago it was my birthday...

I'm going to try to make the most of the day by doing simple errands while at the same time cash in about 60 bucks from my extra change jar....usually it takes about a year to fill. I plan on blowing the money on the most ridiculous thing I can find as a birthday present to myself....
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abyssia:
Happy Birthday
kombucha:
happy bday to u.
happy bday to u
happy bday,...
happy bday to u
happy bday to u
happyyyyyyyyyyyyy bdayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
*wiggles butt to the music i can hear in my head*

so hows u hun *kisses*
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::::shockedkay....introspective rant coming:::::::

I need to figure out what I'm going to do in the meantime before I can actually get out on my own.

My undergrad is going to be spent watching other kids live their lives with friends while I spend it sitting at home drinking wine alone with the parents downstairs.

I'm alone right now, there's no question about it. I...
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merrow:
Happy birthday!
kiley:
Happy Birthday to us!!!! biggrin
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I think I'm long past due about updating on the progress of the pateo being built.

Up until about 3 weeks ago I came to the conclusion that
1. I don't have the necessary tools
2. I don't have the manpower
3. I don't have the time

It was saddening to leave an excavated pateo to the hands of someone else. But it was extremely...
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veganvixen:
i just looked at your wish list, i would have to say, you are a dork haha. but i knew that b4 anyway. i should make one of those wishlist things for my family for xmas so that wasy i don't have to say " i don't know" when they ask me what i want. i'm glad you didn't have to do all that patio, that would have sucked hardcore.
avenger:
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Okay, forget everything I said in my last journal badmouthing schools.

I'm so fucking glad to be back in school it's incredible. Going through the process of actually declaring my major (anthropology) and brand new minor (history) I've found out that I only need 10 more classes to graduate, which leads to the possibility of me either getting out of school a semester early or...
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siv:
Time for my annual "I miss school and routine and solidity and am jealous of school-goers" comment. frown
veganvixen:
haha, i wish i could stab pepole and get away with it. i'm glad you are happy to be back in school dear. good luck.
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Well, school is starting up tomorrow, which means that tonight is the conclusion to my summer.

I thought I was going to have a lot more free time, but the past three weeks of starbucks has been insane to the point where I haven't had as much time as I'd like to myself in order to be productive. All work and no play makes Alex...
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