lily

12:22 Saturday

I see her coming, gypsy skirt, beautiful black eye. She could tell you your dreams if she wasn't so busy destroying her own. Half heart keeps busy and the evangelical taxi driver keeps preaching to me. He knew me from back in the day when he would shuttle me from wallstreet fuck to wallstreet fuck to do cocaine with them and dance like...
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There was a man with a saxophone playing a sad song, lost as every one of us on that rainy day that I couldn't find anything to be thankful for except the future and that sad saxophone playing to the rhythm of my soul. Sleepy eyed in the morning, we open our raccoon eyes, been staying with insanity and a man that claims he's in...
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Last night was train rides, heartache, and lost memories. All of this bringing me to a cold street and a girl I only knew before through text and pictures. and really, what the fuck is that? She smiles like a shy angel and she's fragile but still so strong. We stayed up until four am in the alleyways of this city, searching for dumpstered food...
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and just when I think I might go down the street and buy that handgun once and for all..........

From : nic gray <ibnicg@yahoo.com>
Sent : Thursday, October 26, 2006 5:03 AM
To : lily <Lilithdreams@hotmail.com>
Subject : same lame shit

W T F I been knowing ya for a minute right. I fucking agree with some, if not alot of what your about,whitegirl but...
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I spent most of my halloween reunited with my fabulous faggot of a little brother. I forgot how much I missed him and his energy. We held hands and wandered the streets with his entourage, He always finds so many girls that just love to follow him around. We both grew up so broken, fighting off demons the best way we knew how. Having a...
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Got back from Philly to this wasteland. I opened a squat in North Philly with Carmelita. She would play guitar at night and I would freestyle with whiskey. Back in the city that never sleeps. Headed to Vermont for a minute. My gypsy blood is freezing. Going west soon. Well south then west, Hopefully I'll get to a little place I like to call Hell...
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I was on the other side of the train tracks, when i felt cold metal to my head and a familiar voice say "Okay you fucking bitch, give me all your money or i swear to fucking god, I'll kill you" I looked up and saw this crazy kid i used to hang out with, He had blood in his eyes, LOCO CHOLO. I wondered...
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LISTENANDLEARN

Hey there,
Below is an e mail I received that i'm reposting....Maybe someone will give a fuck and help out...
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G'day everyone!

How are you all doing? I won't hold you for too long but I wanted to ask you all a little important contribution (no!! not $$$, so don't run away and please read on ;-)) as a very big day is...
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Watched the sun set from tiny teasing windows above barbed wire fences and bodies of water on an island called Rikers where a million hearts sang out their own sad song and a thousand feet shuffled behind their hard locked doors to hear the sound of the thunderstorms, outsideoutside, a place we were deprived of.
I wrote on those yellow walls and laughed with 15...
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I opened my sleepfilled eyes and looked around in a
daze. All of my dreams were so empty and white.
There was a big black girl kicking the mat I was sleeping on, screaming,
"You ain't gonna sleep all day bitch." I got up and shuffled over next to her. The world, or
what was left of it seemed so surreal, which was probably because...
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I was one of those girls, in the back of the newspapers. Wed show up at your door for 60 bucks and then come inside for more. Your smile was infectious and beautiful. You held onto my hand and didnt let go. Like an infant afraid to leave its mothers arms. I had these intense maternal feelings for you while you sank on the cold...
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