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very true and very beautiful, Anguz... man, it's been too long since we've spoken but I'm glad I came to check you out today. your post touched me in just the right way.

be well, my friend, but do not be a stranger.

O.

I only feel that way about instrumental music. Everything else, i'm too busy listening to what the lyrics and story are behind the song to let it affect me. But there is no God, the closest we get to him is Rolf Harris.

Can you tell what it is yet?

I rip into my friends sometimes... but it's not always appropriate - there are definitely friends who I'm more childish/rude to than others. I think it's a case of knowing how far you can go with someone, if one of my friends were offended by it I'd definitely stop.

Also: I think that I think in a posh-ish but quite bland English accent, when actually I am from the midlands... maybe my subconscious is trying to get me to 'better' myself? ^-^ xx

What's a "hash" key?

Yay for drunken blogs! I hope you had a good time, my friend.

xx

Ew... you made a NEW Transformers movie reference! Now I don't know if we can sleep together

Anguz, the last thing you are is an asshole. Listen to DelaneyJae. She knows what she's talking about.

And as for your "mate" saying that you've no right to be depressed because you're healthy (good), good looking (god, yes), have great mates (well, yes but...), and have a good standard of living (what, well off people can't be sad?) doesn't mean that you can't be depressed. Often, depression isn't related to your actual surroundings. Often it's related to a chemical imbalance or to something that you haven't addressed in your life. Just because everthing "on paper" looks good does not mean that there's nothing wrong OFF the page, you know?

And I don't mean this to sound like your mates are not good mates. If you chose them, then it's clear to me that they have a lot of good inside of them. It's just that it's rarely as simple as that. People who suffer from depression walk all the walks of life and range in degrees of creature comforts. That's not what depression is about. If you're depressed, there's a reason. Maybe not one that your friend can easily discern. Maybe not even a reason that you are aware of. But there IS a reason. We do not feel things in a vacuum. There's a cause for every effect. For every feeling there's a source. You just have to find it. I know that you will. I have faith in my friends. I have faith in you.

I think you have every right to want a quieter night at a pub, enjoying the company of your mates in a way that you just can't at a club. It's a different atmosphere. One that I don't think we get to enjoy in this crazy paced world. I think what you suggested sounds lush.

So, in short (which wasn't all that short, was it?), you're not an asshole. No way. You're a good guy. One that I'm really happy to have met.

Hope you find your source soon.

I don't think it's wrong at all to want to do something different for a change... My guy right now thinks he has to get piss drunk every time he has a day off and then he feels like complete shit for the next couple days afterwards... I'm with you on this one, I'd MUCH rather have some drinks in a place where you can talk to your friends.. makes for a much more enjoyable evening in my mind!

Oh, and I got the Transformers reference too...

ouch... that's not the kind of ass play that I enjoy...

Hey, my friend. I know where you're coming from. I used to think that I had a lot of friends until I realized that I was home while they were out partying at haunts that I had introduced them too... you can imagine how peeved I was to hear about that. That's when I decided that it was time to make a change; either my friends had to go or I had to become more involved. Turned out it was a combination of the two.

But trust me when I say that there's nothing wrong with you as a human being. I think you're a great guy from the few exchanges we've had and I always look forward to more exchanges... of conversation... observation... ejaculation... whatever...

Maybe it's time to take a step back from those "friends" and see what else there is out there for you. You might be surprised at what you find.

I don't have a bunch of time (overslept and the day is moving on) but I wanted to suggest that you go out and spend some time in the company of others. I know what it's like to be depressed the way that you seem to be at the moment and while the notion of going out always filled me with discomfort, the actual act of going out always improved my mood. Maybe give that a try?

As for your parents, I'm there too. My parents likely stayed together because my younger brother has Asperger's but really the damage that did to everyone, my younger brother included) pretty much showed that they shouldn't have stayed together. Still, while you might believe they should just split, there might be something they don't show you that makes them want to stay together.

I want a pet too but am in the same "where will I be in a year?" position... is it not possible to take the pet with you? I mean, you sound like you want a cat... not a horse

Talk later, my friend. Hang in there, okay? Trust me, it does get better.

(manly) xx

Hey, have you thought of joining the bi boys community? I know that's kind of out of nowhere but your post reminded me of my perspective on my bisexuality. Also, I think it's interesting that you want to write for video games. I'm a writer myself (theater) and have played with the idea of trying my hand at video games as a medium to express my more complicated story ideas. The idea of more plot and character driven games appeals to me greatly.

Anyway, that's not why I came here. I was intrigued by your remarks in the Doctor Who group and wanted to say to you directly that I'm not being contrary in my responses to your posts. In fact, I greatly appreciate your comments because they have inspired me to respond. I may not agree with your perspectives (in inversely, you may not appreciate mine) but I do enjoy the chance to discuss Doctor Who from a less "yay, everything is perfect about the show" perspective. As the Voltaire says, "I disapprove of what you say, but I will defend to the death your right to say it."

Take care!