You sound like you're going thru something very similar to what a friend of mine is going thru. She is the sweetest girl in the world, has a horrible husband, and she & I have very strong feelings for each other and have for awhile. Life can really suck, that's for sure. I hope things go the way they need to for you.
Of course I care for him...I mean I married the man. When I got married, I ment for it to be the one and only time it happened - and since shits gone down I've been so dissapointed that he wasn't willing to put more work into things. So here I am, excited that he wants to try - but he's been so back and fourth about everything, and he seems really sure - but the truth is, i'm not sure he's ready to do the work, or give up the things that would be nessicary for us to have a healthy marriage. And do I really want to put all that fucking work in, just to find out he can't? I've been doing so much already...
Not that my recommendation counts (it's your life) but if he wants to try you need to make him really, really work for this. He should have to prove all over that he is deserving of your love and trust.
