I'm sorry I haven't been replying to people, I will catch up, I swear!
I've been more than busy getting ready for skipping country, in fact, skipping continents. So much paperwork to deal with, crap at work, my sisters scattering around the world too, saying my good-byes to one already last week, won't see her for a year. Good-byes to the other probably today, also, a year without. And I'm freaked out of saying that to the 7-year-old. I mentioned that I would be going to her before, but I'm not sure she understood it means I won't see her for so long. I really don't want her to cry. Or me to cry.
And then there's the boyfriend. Most amazing person in the world. Yet, we managed to get into an ugly fight Friday and I'm not sure he's decided by-gones to be by-gones yet. Funny, how you can try so hard, be so understanding, so patient and altogether a great support, but if you have a weak 10 minutes, where rationality temporarily leaves you, you can possibly cause a huge chink in the relationship. Currently, I hate myself... and am praying, that we can get over it.
Trouble is, I'm leaving in a month and there's just so little time to see each other and I feel the huge shadow of the looming day of my depart over my head and it's making not being able to see each other too much really difficult for me to deal with. Because that's one good-bye I will probably be most bent out of shape dealing with...
