xxsullen_girlxx

Hello everyone... What a long week... today is the first day I have had off since last sunday...grrrrr.. Im really tired I need to get my ass to bed because i have to be up at 6am for another glorious day at work BLAH Been kinda out of sorts lately... nervous breakdowns panic attacks ya know that whole thing... but been getting better.. for those of who dont know i was taking anti- depressants and decided to take myself off of them because of many reasons such as
#1. Been so stressed out by family shit that I started to forget to take them and so i thought that I might as well try to deal with all the bullshit unmedicated to become a better and stronger person.
#2. No more bullshit ex boyfriend telling me how fucked up I am and making me feel shitty and crazy
#3 I now have a wonderful boyfriend the great SHABBYDO who totally listens and helps me through all my fucked up shit and reminds me that im awesome and pretty and NOT crazy and not that awful person that certain people in my life try to make me out to be and he saved me from having to go back to my sad depressing home life living with my Dad
#4 I have wonderful friends here on SG who have shown me lots of love and concern lately such as happylittlebitch punkydoll shardik and also submissivewho has always been here for meand was there through my REALLY bad times and even Wakoo has shown his concern in his own strange way... many of you have been awesome but im runnin out of room to name all of you so forgive me for that
So now that Im off the drugs i do have a hard time sometimes but I really am feeling like im getting better and it feels good to know that i am getting better on my own with out medication and now when I have Happy days I know that what I am feeling is real and not something that has been drug induced. Im really excited about living with my shabbydoand that makes me happy alright im left a pretty long update so I go to bed now night