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why am i always so emo?
ugh.
anyways. so. i really feel ... idk ... abandoned? rejected? idk something along those lines
but i feel it from my best friend.
i finally told one of our "mutual" friends that she annoyed me and that i didnt like her
and i kinda hoped my best friend would back me up and be on my side
since she'd called a number of times complaining about how the "mutual friend" had lied repetatively
and other things that friends should not do ...
but she didnt. ske looked it over and continued to be her friend, and it seems like shes even more so friends with her than me. and that really gets me bc we've been best friends for so long. i understand that i live far away, but i call, i used to message her and comment her before this happened. and she doesnt return my calls half the time (which is pretty normal for her) but she hasnt messaged me or anything, but she has with this other friend. and she calls and tells me how much the things that she does gets on her nerves and bugs her (that totally doesnt sound right, grammar wise) and all these things, and she goes right back to it. she calls and says "... if thats true than thats the last straw with her. im sick of it." and 2-3 days later shes fine and dandy with her. and i dont get it. and it hurts a little
and again with the scaring the crap out of myself
swear to god i heard someone outside ... banging ... on my steps. yeah
im 19. and in a house by myself.
as much as people dont like police, their aweful nice and very comforting during times of freaking out
i hate myself. i suck at life
pttth
will someone smack me and tell me to pull myself back together? 
why am i always so emo?
ugh.
anyways. so. i really feel ... idk ... abandoned? rejected? idk something along those lines
but i feel it from my best friend.
i finally told one of our "mutual" friends that she annoyed me and that i didnt like her
and i kinda hoped my best friend would back me up and be on my side
since she'd called a number of times complaining about how the "mutual friend" had lied repetatively
and other things that friends should not do ...
but she didnt. ske looked it over and continued to be her friend, and it seems like shes even more so friends with her than me. and that really gets me bc we've been best friends for so long. i understand that i live far away, but i call, i used to message her and comment her before this happened. and she doesnt return my calls half the time (which is pretty normal for her) but she hasnt messaged me or anything, but she has with this other friend. and she calls and tells me how much the things that she does gets on her nerves and bugs her (that totally doesnt sound right, grammar wise) and all these things, and she goes right back to it. she calls and says "... if thats true than thats the last straw with her. im sick of it." and 2-3 days later shes fine and dandy with her. and i dont get it. and it hurts a little
and again with the scaring the crap out of myself
swear to god i heard someone outside ... banging ... on my steps. yeah
im 19. and in a house by myself.
as much as people dont like police, their aweful nice and very comforting during times of freaking out
i hate myself. i suck at life
pttth
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I'm about to move away from my friends to another city. I hope no one turns into a prick and i don't get scared (but i always do about something
Hope eveything is ok now between you and your friends.