xanderphoto

I've been off a few days trying to get work done, and generally in a bad mood, I have models that won't show up for shoots, I feel like I'm weeks behind in my portfolio and to top it all off, I hit sort of a depressive state. I'll admit it, I'm a lonely person.I take a lot of rejection and have sort of gone into my shell and hid behind my work, it's really all I ever do anymore. I actually do work seven days a week, and depending on the week, up to four jobs. I've cut down severely, but I'm still spending a lot of time on the couch at home, because I've gotten to the point of where I just don't know how to talk to people anymore. I've never been the type to date around, I've always been a one woman guy, but lately finding one woman that's interested is hard enough.

My series is starting to slow up again. For those of you that don't know, I'm a photographer and right now I'm working on a nude gallery series that I hope to have ready by graduation. Which is in September for me. I had five models that were supposed to show up at the studio space I've been working at on Sunday that didn't bother, and I've got one more that is backing out on me for Thursday. I have quite a few shots already (50+) but I'm attempting to get a book together to go with it and I want to have at least triple that. My models have been all shapes and sizes from the 5'7" 85lb. girl to the 5'3" 185lb. girl and all of the images were absolutely stunning.

So yeah that's it for me in a nutshell...frustration, frustration, frustration.