wyspurr

the shoe has fallen. however, like the game mousetrap, it only fed the trigger i've been holding. winter quiting his job today actually makes me feel free.

i told someone off. their litany about how to fix my life, when it's the same things they always say to me, was getting old. i'm tired of holding my tongue. no one knows my head and motivations except for me, and a few select people. even the closest person to me doesn't know all of me...only the pieces i've shown. you can't make me do something without keeping in mind what i want. i probably don't want the same thing you do. in fact, my goals and priorities are completely different than most. don't try to guilt trip me. i grew up in that environment, and it only makes me angry. you feel that it is a weakness to quit. to me, it is a weakness to stay in an environment that keeps you from getting what you want.

tonight i could have gone to roller derby, in fact i probably should have. but what i wanted to do was spend time with my family...so that's what i did.

anyway...now that winter doesn't work, he can watch the kids again. our family can get back in order. our kids can stop missing us. i can sleep at night...think more clearly...be less bitchy to my kids. i can have the time to find a better job...time to focus...time to be alone. and most importantly, i can start having an orgasm at least once a day again. spending time with my family and winter is more important to me than money.