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got myself some shaky-ass hands. Unnecessary ephedra intake. I need to save those jewels. My weekend? Up and down up and down up and down. I did get a five dollar bra yesterday that i did not pay for with credit. Did i need it, no. I had to put in a lengthener in the back because i'm apparently pretty wide. Victoria Secret bras spoil titties. It's true. I have a headache and should eat dinner which i think will be cookie crisp.

The bra is cute. Exercise tomorrow, wed, fri and saturday. I think that's a good idea. I didn't today. Which was awfully uncool of me.

I saw my mother last night. D and i saw her. It was nice. And today she picked me up to go see my grandma. Which is a good thing. She did some odd "dance" and said, who am i? I'm like...i...don't know. And she said she was a robot. Yeah, she did a robot dance. I want to stay close to my family.

but really, i want to keep this weight off. perhaps by less harmful means. But results are results, what i see on the outside makes what's actually happening on the inside not matter as much. Shallow, huh?

My mother said she doesn't know where i get my low self-esteem from, but she also has it. So does my sister. I think it's just a thing in our family. I've not too many people that have good self-esteem. And even less that don't come off as arrogant fucks. Heh. i dont think i'm a bad person. I just want to continue to improve and strive for more. Physically and also mentally. Right right. Sometimes compliments make me cry. D and my mom will say nice things about me and i start to cry. period soon.

peace. Hope your weekends were lovely.