Sorry I've been absent. Super-heavy workload recently. I suspect Mae-Ann did not have enough personal self-esteem to deal with your friendship with the person you mention above. See this as her problem and her loss. She has allowed jealousy to create loneliness for herself. You are hurt, as any of us would expect you to be. You are, though, doing so many things to make your life better. Don't allow this set-back to sideline you. Keep plugging away at it all. It's a long, heavy train moving up a very steep hill, I know, but it is still moving and it is progress--however slow it may feel.
all best, my friend.

I wasn't pushing Buddhisam, just a focus of healing Energy.
Unfounded jealousy seems to flourish, it is a sad attempt at control.
Healing will take some time, try to make a new routine for the week-end.

I hear what you are saying about taking a break. I was kind of expecting you not to be around.

I lost my phone again! you'll have to call and give me your number again.

Give this a listen to :

Pick up an Harmonica and start jamming some Blues.

Very true the King's are both great. Stevie left us too early.
When I use to drive through NYC area I enjoyed listening to
WFUV out off Fordham, a good ecceltic mix. If you stream
wunh.org has a good Blues show Sunday eve 5 to 8PM.
Ok try this on for size:

One of the extras from the Cable is a slew of 24hr music
channels, Blues is one, where I heard this guy.
On the off chance that the vid doesn't take look up
'' Eugene Hideaway Bridges''

I also love the blues. I worked at a club for nearly 14 years. We had live acts three or four nights a week. I miss the music and the fine people I met.

So...
How was the restaurant? I hope it all turned out to be as great as it sounded.

I am sorry to hear about Mae-Ann, but maybe it is a sign that you don't need her any more. I believe that things happen for a reason, so remember the good times and move on with hope that the next part of your life will be something else to learn from.

*hugs*

I hope that your coincidence turns into good news - you're due for some.

I'm with you - I've never felt my age and certainly never "acted" it. I consider that a positive facet of my personality. There have been those that would disagree...

The kidnapping part would be fine if it was properly done by a group of lovely ladies. Not to keen on getting the old melon lopped off though Perhaps I should work on finding a perk to becoming decapitated

In a rush, but I got your message no problem. You sound as if everything is in perspective. Painful, but in perspective. More later. Got to run. Take care, my friend.

Your wisdom is both sage and true. Long live the kidnapping plots by the hot dominatrices

I did enjoy myself thank you...

and I really would love to get together, and discuss things over coffee

Your daughter sounds like a wonderful person. I guess that it's true: The apple really doesn't fall far from the tree...

yes you deduced right, but I am good, feeling sane and strong. I just know I need to give space to remembering.

BTW, I saw someone wrote on here that being in such a long relationship with your wife, you missed out on a lot of the pitfalls of dating -- which include breakups. Doesn't matter if the people are 15 or 80, it does hurt when someone ends if and there is always a long list to comb back over -- things that either person could've done differently, and things that feel like betrayals.

It sounds like the relationship also really caused problems with her son.

I know that you are still hurt and sad, but I guess if the relationship wasn't strong enough to last through these tough times, then at least now you are free enough to have anyone else come into your life. I know you don't feel like much of a catch now, but you are real, and in touch with your feelings and so perhaps you have more to offer than you realize.

or something like that.

you are so sweet.
And I will keep you posted.

Thanks In typical 5 year old fashion, I have been hell bent and hard pressed to get him to lay down or sit still for 5 minutes

I already do

i'm so glad you're not leaving SG. I would miss you!

I wish i had more time to write but know that i'm sending you good vibes and love. <3

yeah, i would, but if the doctor is going to try to give me anything but vitamins i'll say a big FUCK YOU. i am very anti drugs unless it is for something life threatening. you can refer to this old blog of mine.
i think it is just stress though. when i get upset, my body shuts down. when i get angry, it freaks out (thus the xanax so i dont think im dying).


i am really glad you are not leaving. you are my friend, and i enjoy talking with you

I'm back - coming off of three good days and one great one. I hope that you are in good spirits and starting to get some better breaks.

thanx man!

It's actually Shelton Benjamin. He's a pro wrestler. Yes, I'm one of those nerds who watches that stuff. I've been one since I was a kid.

Sorry for the delayed response. I spaced on it.

So... go Sox?

Dreary day here... I'm just getting up and getting organized. You'll be hearing from me within the hour.