I hear you - I've been working on #3 myself right now.
I went through a round of routine medical exams in early February and one of them came up with the big C. I'm having a biopsy on this Wednesday morning to find out the extent of it. The hard part is that my Doctor's office wasted a month playing phone tag with me and then delayed the biopsy for two more weeks. So now I've had six weeks of angst to deal with. And will have to wait for the results from Wednesday. I've been on pins and needles waiting to find out the extent of it.
I 've lost a great many family members to the big C - so i'm more than a little nervous.
You know you have to do what you have to do. All I have to say it take care of what you need to we will be here. You are an amazing guy and I can't wait to see you at full throttle again.
take care of yourself. i know from my experience, as wonderful as the support here can be, there are times when a break is the best thing for you. be well....
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Hard as it may seem to do: are you fitting in something enjoyable into each day?
My best to you.