I am sorry to hear that things are going tough for you right now. It is tough when so many things pile up all a one time. The tough thing is when you have so much going to crap it is tough to see the see the light. I hope you find some soon.


I am counting down the days until the GF comes back into town. She has been in another country since june. she has visited a few times but it has been a long time.

I hope you feel better soon sweetie! Things getting better can only come from YOU. They CAN and WILL get better...

When the universe, and all in it, seems to conspire against me
When love is something found only in Fairy Tales
When my very dreams have turned to dust

I try to think of the cycles and forces in my life as I would a pendulum. It has to swing all the way in one direction before it can begin to swing back. You can fight it, but you can't force it. It may sound silly, but it has worked for me.

There have been times in my life when I've thought of terminating my existence. I actually, when I was young and petulant, attempted it once. You can imagine how bad things must have seemed; how badly I must have felt. Guess what? I'm still here, and glad of it.

I know that you are going through a very bad time. You have suffered terrible loss and tremendous disappointments. That's just the things that I know about; there are probably even more.

Just try to remember that the bad things that have happened to you are not necessarily your fault. For that matter, try not to think of them as having happened TO you; they occured, and you have been, to say the least, adversely affected. I'm not attempting to trivialize anything, I'm just hoping that you will be able to compartmentalize and deal with these tragedies and begin to heal from all the "slings and arrows".

While you're waiting for the fates to smile upon you once again, remember to love and appreciate yourself. That is the always the first, most important and often the most difficult step. Think of all the good that you've done, happiness you've given and friendship you've shared. You're a great person. A lot of people care about you. We want you to be happy again. I know that you will be.

I wish I could guarantee anything. I'm sure if I tried to do that with the sun coming it, I'd jinx the sun.

I know it's hard to believe when you're in it, but you really are trying to help yourself with therapy and meds, so it WILL get better.

hopefully they will turn the sox group to me soon. everyone who voted, mentioned my name. in a couple of days it will have been a week of voting, like the site admin people wanted, so we shall see.

sorry to see things arent going well for ya. i dont know what to do or say other than send positive vibes your way, and hope it all heads in the other direction soon.

yep, i was ranting about watchmen in the other blog.
i feel the same about sg as you do. the friends i have made non this site are better than my 'irl' ones.
and please keep hope, life is nothing without hope. even if it is just hope for something little, like an event youre looking forward to, movie, job...just dont EVER give up all hope.

If it was said post Lincoln administration, you are safe my friend

Never feel bad about needing anything. The hardest part is always understanding that there is a need. Not in the asking. You are a good soul, and the karma has a habit of making rounds when we most need it.

Apologies for being AWOL. I've been trying to get my ducks in a row, with less than zero success. Every time I start to delve into future and/or financial issues things just get worse.

I will PM you later.

Best always,
M.

Thanks for the advice.

You are an amazing guy.

I hope everything turns for you soon enough.

It is pretty unnerving to be out of control of your own destiny. I don't know if it makes things better or worse that so many people are going through this. On one hand you have people who can commiserate but on the other no one is in a position to help in any material way. It's scary to think that this is only the start of the recession.

I wish I had something cheery to say but can only say I wish you good fortune and hope one of the jobs comes through.

I'm really sorry to hear that your relationship ended. If you need anything, just let me know.

I've been away... I hardly spend time here anymore.

Im so sorry about your breakup xoxoxoxoxoxox

Sometimes it feels, for to long, that our world is going in the wrong direction. Sweetheart you'll see the better path soon. Keep your eyes open. It may not look like you think it should but it will be right and right in front of you.

Keep moving forward... you just have to. I know how your feeling... please believe I understand.

love you my friend

I can hear the desperation in your blog. I'm so sorry it is so hard. Consider all of the support options available, and hang on, ok? I do have hope for you.

Would they be privy to your credit rating? maybe not? And wouldn't that be a horrid irony? I think only a felony conviction would hold it up really.

Why, thank you!

Haha! Indeed, it's very easy to realize that you're a White Sox fan...I bet you and Craig have a lot to talk about regarding this topic.

On a different note, I'm sorry to hear about these hard times you're going through. I wish you strength to keep going!

Still no word on my paperwork yet. Congrats on the 88. Did they give a cut off range?

*hugs*

Hey if i can manage to get approved for a loan ONE day before it's too late, there's hope for you too!

Don't worry, it will get better i promise you. You have to tell yourself that first, and trust that you will believe it later.

Call me any time you need <3

As for the Bard; he was a man of his time, that was not
noted for being very tolerant of any differences. So it
appears that he drew the Jews to the limits that that
society permitted them.
But to hear Shylocks speech: "If you prick us do we not bleed/''
etc etc. There seems to be some reguard for the individual,
if the race itself is dispised.
I had to read in Al's comments to follow what you were on about;
88 isn't a bad score. Late but I wish ya well with the interview

Sorry I've been absent and unaware of the recent situation with you. I've been battling my own depression lately--with good days and bad.
That said, though--keep in mind you never expected Lyrical to come into your life and provide a whole new life to you. You never quite expected Mae Ann to come along and offer love and comfort for a time. You never expected to find a website like SG and the friends you have here.
Yes, there have been many downs with all of this, but you cannot look at these events and think there is no hope in your life. Look at what the unexpected brought to you. I say this having dealt recently with profound hopelessness. I'll try, my friend, to keep my eyes up, my face turned to the sun, and give hope space in my heart--if you will do the same.

Thank you, love. My thoughts are with your daughter tonight. I hope she breaks a leg! (except not really, but you know what I mean). You'll have to tell me how it goes.

I'm with you about the deficits. I don't like them either, but to hear Republicans crying about it now is just laughable. Actually maddening.

I hope all goes well for you, Mate. I know things are hard, but you've made it this far. And you're still able to talk about it and rationalize what's going on. Keep picking yourself up. It's the only way.