thus 15yrs ago tomorrow I moved to the Cities... and've been here ever since - with at least a good decade, and possibly longer, to go !
*whew*
who would've thought I'd still be in this area ( gods know I didn't! )... 15yrs is a mighty long time and the nation, let alone world, a mighty big place to be stayin' in one area
these 15yrs have brought and wrought a lot of changes in this sometimes strange life of mine ::
while death has always been a part of my odd world, one major one in particular shifted my world substantially...
the death of my sister just months after I moved and shook my li'l world up but good
my mothre's death years after struck a chord - particularly in that it was the 2nd time in my life I'd seen someone I loved take their last breath - but at least had some build-up to it with cancer, not like my sister's out of nowhere drowning *sighs*
2012 was the only year - since moving here and since '88 - that I didn't know anyone who died - aye, I have this strange feeling it may be THE only year, but it was a wonder, to say the least... as if my "friend" death took a year off from me
of the 4 relationships since my adulthood, only one occurred in these past 15yrs...
weirdly enough it was a relationship that broke many a record, indeed
it was the first relationship to last longer than 40days
it was my first and only marriage, as well as my first and only divorce
it was the first relationship that no connection to people I already knew
it was an odd relationship - though that's no surprise, we were such an unlikely couple in the first place that people we knew were shocked, to say the least :)
out of this relationship/marriage something else happened that no one - least of all the ex-wife and I - thought would, or even could, happen...
my spawnlings, my beautiful and semi-evil daughters, Jacqueline & Clio
so strangely different from each other that you'd be hard pressed to think they're related at times
but - by gods - since neither of us were supposed to be able to have kids, the fact that these two survived makes them wondrous and amazing ( though other times it's amazing neither the ex nor I have killed the li'l buggers )
these hellspawn siblings were nearly joined by an eldest and youngest sibling - but the first and last were not meant to be and did not make it to childbirth
not surprising, I worked multiple employments - at least in the first half of these 15yrs
employments that were unlike any previous work experience that led me to where I am now employed... and have been employed since '07! ( that itself is another record )
no one would've thought me, of all people, would ever be working in any association to the automotive industry... but here I am!
and I love my job, even with its quirks, sometimes insanity, certain co-workers you'd like to strangle, and the oft-heavy workload
how many people can truly say they enjoy their job ? and, by gods, I do !!
health/physical-wise I've changed these past 15yrs as well...
most of my teeth are now gone... well, the visible portion gone ( incident involving a frying pan started that like a chain of dominos )
I've gained 70lbs, mostly in the past 8yrs ( I could blame that on both the spawnlings and my metabolism finally slowing down as I age )
an attack/robbery made me further susceptible to concussions and added more dents and memory loss to my already fractured skull ( car accident in '96 did more damage, though )
and, as usual, minor accidents and incidents have accumulated into various scars, dents, holes, and body aches and pains ( no one I know well should be too surprised at my harming myself in some manner by accident or unusual incident )
and [drumroll please] the grey... oh, dear gods, the grey
no, I'm not completely grey, but my scruffy self is facially greyed where it's impossible to hide
the strands in my hair are not as noticible at first glance, but they're there as well, to be certain!
*whew* of course, that's just the tip of any iceberg and these 15yrs have been as joyous as they've been stagnant as they've been horrific
BUT... someone my sorry self has survived it all
so... I've got myself a bottle of wine and a bevy of DVDs, BluRay, and netflix/hulu to "celebrate" this 15yr "anniversary"
with a farethee well for now, my lovelies and gentlefolk, I give you a rant I expelled last evening and wish you all a wonderful everything until my next posting !
2/25 Early Evening Rant (facebook edition) ::
it's bloody frightening that in my generation and my children's the "gay stigma" is still in relatively full effect, with people decrying them as having "turned their backs on g-d" or "if they truly believed in g-d they wouldn't be gay" amongst other absurdities
bible-bashing people's heads in about the bible being anti-gay, they forget that in MY generation and youth blacks, children out of wedlock, and women in power were still stigmatized... in my grandfather's generation divorce was THE cardinal stigma for being shunned and "turning their backs on g-d" and we're only a few generations out from women even SPEAKING in church being a shunnable offense - after all, it's ALL right there in the xtian bible!
c'mon already - if organized religion can get over women speaking in church, divorce, women in power, black people, children out of wedlock, and the pages upon pages of biblical offense that have been ignored for generations, then they can surely get over something as simple as LOVE, for fuck's sake.
and that's what it is, kids... LOVE. there is no cure for it (gods help some of us), it'll probably never stop being an integral part of humanity (whether we appreciate it or not), and there are millions of people in utterly ABUSIVE and DANGEROUS relationships that very few bat an eye at, but someone loving someone of the same sex is... "can you say... eeeeevil?!?"
I don't think so. In simplest terms, for all you homophobic bigots - Grow. The. Fuck. Up.
other twits and twiddles ::
2/13 :
for those that know me, if someone asked about me how would you - or have you? - describe(d) me to them ?
2/13 II :
here we go again: dear hallway dumbass who took their kid to Deadpool and is bitching to all about how bad it was - LEARN THE RATING SYSTEM
2/13 III :
"stop, Grr, you're confusing me"
mentally or sexually ?
"and now I hate you"
2/14 :
been up for hours and haven't eaten nor showered yet... 'course I don't plan on really doing much - so time to pop in a flick or two ! :)
2/14 II :
whomever's calling from an "Unlisted Number" this weekend/past week and not leaving a message - Fuck Off, I don't answer unknown numbers...
2/14 III :
once again I've enjoyed VD day alone... which is actually a good thing knowing my past experiences with VD day and significant others...
2/15 :
yes, it IS possible to fit all of the known planets in our solar system between the earth and the moon - I wouldn't recommend it, though...
2/16 :
apartment lease renewal, so in a couple months rent increases again... still ending up cheaper/on par with other apartments in this area
2/17 :
just realized it was the last leapday that I had gotten new glasses... nearly 4yrs - suppose it's nigh time to see about getting new ones
2/18 :
there - food ordered to appease tonight's laziness-and-hunger combo...
pondering if weather will remain warm enough for shave and a haircut?
2/19 :
in the middle of the night my brain decided it was friday - which was technically correct but it also thought mornin' would be saturday :(
2/21 :
random memoria convo :
dude, your mom is hot
"that's my li'l sis you're talking about"
demn, your sis looks old
"(pause) ...yeah, she does"
2/22 :
it's very pretty, certainly, but what kind of soul could you possibly hope to hold in it ?
2/25 :
why, yes, I AM drinking Black Ink, snacking on croutons, rice cakes, and Red Vines while watching new X-Files ... is that a bad thing?
2/26 :
15yrs ago tomorrow I moved to the Cities via the impetus and incentive of good friend Kveen & my world changed in wonderful, unusual ways
This Week's Random Playlist ::
Chicago - Only The Beginning: The Very Best Of (Discs 1 & 2) [entire albums]
Pink Floyd - Dark Side Of The Moon [entire album]
watched recently :
via netflix/hulu:
Tusk
The Big Bang Theory (8th Season)
Galavant (2nd Season)
Lucifer (1st Season)
Agent Carter (2nd Season)
Monster High: Friday Night Frights
Monster High: Ghouls Rule
Monster High: Scaris, City Of Frights/From Fear To Eternity
Legends Of Tomorrow (1st Season)
Supergirl (1st Season)
The Flash (2nd Season)
Mortdecai
X-Files (10th [Mini?]Season)
ownedflix:
Freaks Of Nature
Scouts Guide To The Zombie Apocalypse
Valentine
Space Station 76
Goosebumps
Bubble Boy
Disney's Tomorrowland
Land Of The Lost
Dredd
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unusualist - I have yet to find a religion and/or spirituality that fits my own personal beliefs... other than, of course, the fact I am a (fallen) god.