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I am very depressed today for several reasons, one rather selfish and the others because I am worried about a friend...oh hell, I just need to get it out and maybe I will feel better.
I lost a friend to cancer this week. My heart is broken because I haven't seen or MADE the chance to talk to her in quite awhile. We shared a love of the bagpipe and common interests in teaching and working with kids (she was a school nurse). I can't stop feeling so sad and broken about her. We competed against each other at piping events and she was a solid piper, always enthusiastic and ready to try new tunes and learn about the pipes. A piece of my heart is gone now and I will always remember her...damn, this really hurts. I wish I could express my feelings better.
On top of that, I heard from a close friend here...a wonderful, beautiful, sweet lady who is having health issues and is very depressed. I want to help, but I am half a country away and feel so lost. If I lose her, too...well, that idea is too hard to even think about. I love her and wish her the healthy blessings of the Goddess Brighid...I just hope she gets better and is relieved of the nasty depression she is living under. I know what that does to a person...how awful and meaningless it can be when one is in its grip. I will pray to Brighid with all my power as a Witch for her to get well and be happy.
Then, I took a class in a very special way to teach art...Choice-Based Art Instruction. It made me so excited and I actually LOOKED FORWARD to last Monday when I could get back into my classroom and present it to my students. It's the most excited I've been in all my short six years of teaching art! Unfortunately, the kids were indifferent and mis-behaved so badly I lost my cool and thought, what the hell is the point. I decided to keep trying and not give up on the new program, but my enthusiasm is a bit shattered.
So, here I am, Mr. Gloom...I am working on new art for people here, and for myself. Nothing new to post yet so I will just leave you with this link to a vid I shot on Drakes Island in Maine. I went last weekend to re-charge the mental and emotional batteries...I wish I was there now.
I am very depressed today for several reasons, one rather selfish and the others because I am worried about a friend...oh hell, I just need to get it out and maybe I will feel better.
I lost a friend to cancer this week. My heart is broken because I haven't seen or MADE the chance to talk to her in quite awhile. We shared a love of the bagpipe and common interests in teaching and working with kids (she was a school nurse). I can't stop feeling so sad and broken about her. We competed against each other at piping events and she was a solid piper, always enthusiastic and ready to try new tunes and learn about the pipes. A piece of my heart is gone now and I will always remember her...damn, this really hurts. I wish I could express my feelings better.
On top of that, I heard from a close friend here...a wonderful, beautiful, sweet lady who is having health issues and is very depressed. I want to help, but I am half a country away and feel so lost. If I lose her, too...well, that idea is too hard to even think about. I love her and wish her the healthy blessings of the Goddess Brighid...I just hope she gets better and is relieved of the nasty depression she is living under. I know what that does to a person...how awful and meaningless it can be when one is in its grip. I will pray to Brighid with all my power as a Witch for her to get well and be happy.
Then, I took a class in a very special way to teach art...Choice-Based Art Instruction. It made me so excited and I actually LOOKED FORWARD to last Monday when I could get back into my classroom and present it to my students. It's the most excited I've been in all my short six years of teaching art! Unfortunately, the kids were indifferent and mis-behaved so badly I lost my cool and thought, what the hell is the point. I decided to keep trying and not give up on the new program, but my enthusiasm is a bit shattered.
So, here I am, Mr. Gloom...I am working on new art for people here, and for myself. Nothing new to post yet so I will just leave you with this link to a vid I shot on Drakes Island in Maine. I went last weekend to re-charge the mental and emotional batteries...I wish I was there now.
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chelan:
and happy birthday!
zebrah:
keep your head held high no death is to mourn over fully because its also a new journey to a new life for the person youve lost stay possitive