Truths that hurt
6 weeks of repair and rebuilding and almost free of the millstone and then it drags me back down into hell
to be told the reason I no longer have any friends or haven't been invited anywhere for many years is because she was there. yes she has problems, so do I. Her drunken rampages and abuse I forgave initially out of love and then out of compassion for the loss of her vitality after chemo.
Thinking we'd just died as a couple and needed to move on has been bad enough but to find out that everything I had emotionally has been nearly wiped out by her is nearly impossible to bear.
I had almost freed myself from the damage I'd believed had been done but to hear this has destroyed me inside.
Alchohol, razor, blood ... a way to feel better again.
If I could only erase the last 10 years ....
and to interrupt my down the girl I met who told me I needed medication has been sexting me .... W00T!
6 weeks of repair and rebuilding and almost free of the millstone and then it drags me back down into hell
to be told the reason I no longer have any friends or haven't been invited anywhere for many years is because she was there. yes she has problems, so do I. Her drunken rampages and abuse I forgave initially out of love and then out of compassion for the loss of her vitality after chemo.
Thinking we'd just died as a couple and needed to move on has been bad enough but to find out that everything I had emotionally has been nearly wiped out by her is nearly impossible to bear.
I had almost freed myself from the damage I'd believed had been done but to hear this has destroyed me inside.
Alchohol, razor, blood ... a way to feel better again.
If I could only erase the last 10 years ....
and to interrupt my down the girl I met who told me I needed medication has been sexting me .... W00T!