Where to start?
When I was 8, I loved reading fantasy books about witches, fairies and magic, that always led me to want to be part of a coven
had a club with my friends and we would cast spells and it was cool when people would call us witches, we would get together to find pictures of ghosts, horror stories and share magic tricks.
I was never able to stay in one place, things at home were pretty rough (not getting into that) but my family was pretty well-off, I was never able to keep friends for long- I was always on the move.
Going to private schools (religious, snobby schools), where I´d have very few friends... being bullied for "looking like a witch", living in a huge house smoking at 13
The guys at school that would ask me out would never openly admit they liked me- it was a mean girl situation, never quite fit in, I didn´t mind too much- when I turned 15 I decided to get my first tattoo (my cherries in my left tiddie) I was the only "tatted" person I knew.
After I switched to a different school I finally met my crowd (found that I was super emo) when I would hangout with them we´d get bullied too - because we were lesbians and we were different, I didn´t mind too much, I did feel like I belong somewhere but then I got kicked out of school for beating someone, kissing a girl, worshipping the devil or something like that (I´ve gotten a lot more chill since then)
I´ve never been bad looking, so outside of school hanging out with an alternative crowd I´d be somewhat popular,
I started taking bass lessons with a real cute instructor - we´d make out all the time
That´s the first time I heard it, he said: "you´re like a suicidegirl"
my first thought was "I am a bit suicidal- but how does he know?" (joke)
He showed me an INKED mag that was featuring an article at the time featuring @radeo in an add for SG (most iconic SG on my book)
So I did a lot of research about it, it had all along been my desire to belong somewhere while also being myself... I couldn´t wait to turn 18 and do my first set to apply to be a suicidegirl, longing to be part of a community that spoke the same language.
I shot my first set at age 18- a soon as I turned 18 and then got all insecure about it so I never uploaded it- I was still self conscious about not having enough boobs or enough tattoos (but are they ever enough?)
I love the idea of embracing my flaws, being part of a community that will be ready to embrace me as I am and belong
tatted, sarcastic, too kind for my own good, imperfect.
For me SG is not only about loving my naked body or seeing beautiful artsy naked girls, its a community of inspiration, creativity, resilience against all odds.
We are all outcasts creating our own paths
I´m so glad I finally have my set on the page (at least waiting on queue)
so happy to have the chance of working with a really talented photographer @gitanna that helped me finally get a set in the page and made me feel so confident through the shoot and the application process<3
Here´s the one picture I kept from this beautiful set I did at 18 I wish I´d submitted <3
@penny
@missy
