venna

Yeah, so...yeah.

Not much has been going on lately. Unfortunetely, my great aunt passed away suddenly, so I have to attend the funeral early tomorrow morning. I didn't know her in my adult life per se, but have very fond memories of her as a child. She was still rather young, though....but at least she's finally with her husband at peace.

I should be sleeping now, but can't. I feel so torn. Classic situation of the angel perched on one shoulder, devil on the other. These past few months, I have reformed my deliquent ways and have adopted a better way of life for myself. And I feel as if I am on the verge taking a giant leap in the wrong direction, reversing everything I have worked so hard for. I hate drugs. Even thinking about doing them makes me feel tainted and corrupted. I have refused to take a part in destroying myself, yet the idea of that old usual comfort has been winding around my mind as of lately. I am disgusted with myself right now. Hopefully, I will muster up the strength to make the right decision.

Anyways, I am going to watch me some Kevin Spacey and in time, fall asleep. G'night.