hmmm....something is definetely going wrong here.
I have been around a lot of new people recently, more than usual, and also been back in touch with some people I havent talked to for a while, mostly girls.
The thing is: something is wrong with me it seems.
Within the last week or so, I have had a unusual lot of opportunities for "my standard" and turned down at least 6 or 7 chances to make out/ have casual sex. Which is strange.
I mean, this is not me.Then again, its not that I go whoring around town on a regular basis. And I never was the kind of guy to sleep over somewhere and not be heard of again. Yet mutual casual sex is nice, sure.
I just dont know why, as soon as I could get some, it becomes so utterly boring and undesireable...
very strange. I dont feel like I am chickening out of something, or that, like earlier, I feel like I need to be in a relationship to have sex. I dont even want to be in a relationship. I mean, not indifferently with anyone. Its more that I feel like I really, really need to be fascinated and intellectually relating to someone if I should feel attracted to that person. I think right now this it. Thing is, I dont really feel like letting someone close enough.
Just dont feel like it. No harsh feelings or anything. And again, its just strange to look at me in such a situation as yesterday, or two days earlier, when things are just "too easy". I dont need a chase. Im not into all that scheming bullshit. But I dont feel that this is not something that would enrich my life at this point.
Very.
Confusing.
No?
I have been around a lot of new people recently, more than usual, and also been back in touch with some people I havent talked to for a while, mostly girls.
The thing is: something is wrong with me it seems.
Within the last week or so, I have had a unusual lot of opportunities for "my standard" and turned down at least 6 or 7 chances to make out/ have casual sex. Which is strange.
I mean, this is not me.Then again, its not that I go whoring around town on a regular basis. And I never was the kind of guy to sleep over somewhere and not be heard of again. Yet mutual casual sex is nice, sure.
I just dont know why, as soon as I could get some, it becomes so utterly boring and undesireable...
very strange. I dont feel like I am chickening out of something, or that, like earlier, I feel like I need to be in a relationship to have sex. I dont even want to be in a relationship. I mean, not indifferently with anyone. Its more that I feel like I really, really need to be fascinated and intellectually relating to someone if I should feel attracted to that person. I think right now this it. Thing is, I dont really feel like letting someone close enough.
Just dont feel like it. No harsh feelings or anything. And again, its just strange to look at me in such a situation as yesterday, or two days earlier, when things are just "too easy". I dont need a chase. Im not into all that scheming bullshit. But I dont feel that this is not something that would enrich my life at this point.
Very.
Confusing.
No?
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sakura:
kinda weird...but it happens 
churtch:
I have always found that when I dont have to work for it at all it is boring and cheap, I personally find that I would rather wait and have at least some "chase" to it, its never all that flattering when a girl gives it up too easy, its a lot better if there is some standard "waiting period" to it. Now I feel like I am not making sense......