You have been voted for, sweetie. I love the symbolism!
I feel terrible reading the above, and I'm not talking about the modeling. You're precious to me and I would do anything to protect you from harm, were it only up to me. You can do it yourself, dear. It gets easier with practice and you do have experience now. You're not going to get fat in a week even if you eat non-stop. It is arithmetic after all, and easily calculated. I believe in you. I know it's very frightening.
No dear... dont worry about pics... just try to reverse this awful process...
Try to understand it as well as possible in order to find the right strategy...
I feel I dont have any suggestion because I can not find even a slight hint on
how does it work. For example, I cant understand why you dont eat the suitable
amount of food if you need to gain weight and you recognize it.
Dont you have appetite at all? You recognize you need to gain weigth?
Anyway, I believe that you, better than anyone, can understand this process.
And even if you dont understand it entirely, I believe you can follow some simple
diet prescriptions as a matter of faith. Yes dear!! Matter of faith!!
Faith that everything will be Ok and very quicly be OK!! Why not dear...
The faith will make you eat, the math will make you tick, as Jozsef correctly says above..hehe..
My diet prescription is easy to say: to eat this, this and that, AT LEAST... and at least tree times a day... hehe...
you should shoot another set but I would wait til you aren't down about still losing weight. I'm not real smart about the whole anorexia thing but my recommendation would be to get a measuring cup or a scale or something and start measuring what you have been eating so you know for sure that you are adding to that and eating more everyday than normal. I can see how it would be easy to think you are eating more and just aren't quite eating enough more to gain weight. You are trying though and you have lots of support here so just keep it up! At least you are aware that there is a problem and trying to fix it!
I'm with LitaLoveless on this one, V - you have plenty of people who adore you and support you. I'm sure it is hard to change your p.o.v. from one mindset to another, but that's what friends are for. Much like sets on here, we all comment on threads/blogs to show support for someone/something. We care for you Vacio. We love you.
Awe...
I think you are quite beautiful, inside and out
And, I know you have a lot of problems with yourself, but when you are feeling low, you should step back and realize what a HUGE help you have been to other people and then just smile cause everyone wants to hug you and kiss you and tell you that you are THE MOST AWESOME PERSON EVERRRRR!!
I really appreciate everything you have done, for me and others.
I think you are MORE than strong enough to pull through and get healthy, it just takes time and persistance
Vacio you're a beautiful person, i mean all together, I know your strong enough to beat this,i know its a very enduring battle. I know the problems are prolly adding up. (if at the very least i ask you get some vitamins or vitamin drink at the store) I really wish i could do or say something to bring you even the slightest comfort.
You gave a crap about me when i'd honeslty lost hope,you didnt even know me but you still cared....if that isent beauty at its truest and highest form....i have no idea,and i still thank you for all that you've done,i can see im not the only person you've helped as well
you do ALOT of good helping people,please take some time to mend!!
I think a new set would be fantastic,but if you're not feeling well please take it easy,if doing a set helps you and helps ease your mind then go for it. (sometimes if im really busy when im stressed it acually helps alittle)
If you dont go pink then its SG's loss,i do wish you the best of luck and i will of course show support
I have no idea where the lonley road ends,i know its a long road with many many ups and downs.....but i HAVE to know it ends....it just has to,and it will.
Please stay strong
(sorry it was so long)
i don't mind.
i'm all ears
if you wanna talk any time of msn, shcomc@live.com
or aim, hapiiringo
i'm on almost all day, so if you need an ear, i've got 2
I'm not aware of a site that's anything but much worse than this one, except that I found you here, so it's forever close to my heart just for that. I'll certainly be interested if you make a new discovery.
You're always on my mind, dear, and I can't wait to know how you're getting on, if you feel like sharing that. Love you, doll
That's wonderful, sweetie. You know that my patience has no bounds when it comes to you and I'm delighted any time you write a couple of sentences. It has turned out to be a particularly distressing day after reading Thora's blog. Being a friend of yours is all it takes for someone to be important to me, and she's a pretty special gal by any definition, on top of that. I can only hope for the best. Take care of yourself, angel.
That's awesome darling, eating the chicken and all. And you know what? Keep trying. Try something every few days that you don't normally bring yourself to eat. One thing that I've found that helps me at least stay the same weight, since I can't gain either, is pasta, bread, cereals or oatmeal. Something heavy in grains. Not only is it good for you, it also tends to help you acquire more of an appetite over time, I've found. Could just be the effect it has on me, though, I will admit.
In this case, calories are your friend. Healthy ones, yes, but just the same, you should be taking in at least 1500-2000 calories a day. That's just to maintain a healthy state. In your case, you may need more.
You should think of seeing a nutritionist. I've been seeing one for almost 3 years, and its helped immensely.
I don't know, the thought of it just makes me feel...free. No way to explain it. I have attempted suicide and felt that way even then.
2-12=Feb. 12 - that's how we abbreviate the date in the States. Anyway, the doctor told me to go to the emergency room and I didn't.
And...maybe I shouldn't have written it in a blog. I feel kind of silly. My anxiety meds made me open up a bit too much. I'll be fine. Maybe I will get treatment soon, who knows. My insurance doesn't cover certain, ahem, things, but the doc is willing to say it's for something else, something it does cover.
For the purely cardiac issues I can go to the ER with the insurance I have, and a few clinics may take it. It's crazy how that works. Sicko, indeed.
I love you, too, and I don't want you to worry about me, please, please, please.
Now that some backup cat people have replied I'm going to revise the blog and delete all comments (after pasting them to a doc. for reference and safe keeping).