unfound

and i..
wonder what's inside of me
hating everything i see
hating everyone i meet
destroying all the things i believe
feel the lack of sympathy
knowing what i've tried to be
no one needs to pity me
human beings are just a disease

living through another day
and everything is still the same
stupid you and wretched me
and all that's left is your disease

today was a really good day, i think... we'll see how the week pays off... meaning, i was really ambitious this morning and, all my assigned work for the week, already done... i kicked some major ass... but now i am worried that bordom will prevail... fuck i am such a pessimist... er, realist, er... *shrug*

so, unh... take that, bitch


my fingernails are a'growing... i have cut them all, though, with a clipper, not my teeth, with the exception of my right pinky nail... i don't want to have that cliche long pinky nail, but i have been eating my fucking fingers for almost 25 years, (note the date, bitches)... and i don't want to cut it... it deserves to fullfill it's pnky nail destiny!!!

a friend of mine had a studio in Michigan and found himself on the recieving end of a mass amounts of promotional and pre-release records... and since he is my friend guess who else has the hook up... yeah... soo

i have heard a few of the unreleased nine inch nails and i... wow, totally new sound for NIN, it's like...hmm.. it's like Trent Reznor conquers rock, not just plays rock... the drums are more "actual" kit sounding, but it's still NIN... my friends comment was...
"i'm shocked at how good it is..." and if you knew him, that's saying a lot... sooo.. i am excited to get the full complete album...

maybe that'll tide me over until chino gets team sleep fucking rolling... guh