My father once told me , "mijo show me your friends and i will tell you how you are ." for the longest time i didint understand my father . little to my knowing i started seeing and understanding what he meant .
my father was a man with a big heart and beautiful mind. he had passion for his life and his family's. he didnt trust friends and always second guessed them. see my dad was born in 1938. a native to mexico and a life on the ranch and fields. by age 12 his "friends" showed him how to drink smoke and gamble. from the age of 15 he was already on his own and trying to woo my mother . dad was a charismatic and stunning fella. my mom was already falling for him . but she didint let him know that as to she had him around her finger. by the time my mom was 17 her and my father had my oldest sister. they ran off together and started their own lives. fast foward to 1984 . after 5 kids and 15 years apart from the last sibling being born i came out into the world. as i grew up my father taught me many things and was very hard on me. he wanted me to learn to e the man of the house . he wanted to make sure i knew how to provide and love and care for my family. i could never figure out why he was so hard on me . at the age of 12 i figured out why. i was sat down with my dad and mom . then my father looks at my with his strong and peircing eyes says whats wrong why are you scared . i told him i don't want to be in trouble . he says you arent in any trouble . in mater of fact i want to say how proud i am of you and proving how tough and strong you have become . literally 5 secs later he says i have cancer . i am sick. my time is coming to join your other aunts and uncles and granparents. my life was shatterd . my dad passed away nov 4 1998. i was 14. at this point in life i had 1 best friend . and that friend alone . as a teen with no dad i quickly learned to munipulate people and usethat to my advantage. i was a rebel in my family's eyes . ditching school having sex, after high school heavy drinking and drugs came into play. people i was with were my friends i thought . one night atthe bottom of the barrel i look up and see a light . my eyes open and i am in a hospital . 8ball 2 fifths of jack and bottle of tequila made me end up in a hospital . i look to my left and my mother is crying . ny best friend whom i havent seen since my father passed was there. 5 yrs later out of the blue i couldnt beleive he was there . he gave me a letter with a pic of my dad . and said i didnt have the father u have but i loved him as my own. he gave me this to give to u when u would need it most . that letter contained my fathers secretrs and admissions. i broke down . 2 yrs of being sober after .....i started schooling again and got a good job. and a hot gf. we ended up having a son who is super smart and handsome . heis 8. and the other day on the phone with him he tells me dad i have 3 friends they are the best ! they teach me to play baseball and football. and how to run from girls with coodies. see my son is still very innocent as i was . but unlike my father i live 800 mi away. i fully provide or him and see him very often. but as i was saying i beleivee in friends and i beleive the fact that they can save ones life at the moment we needthem most . i am just rambling on here its the first site i opened and saw blog and said why not. i am actaully still very new to this site . and havent really met anyone here . i am looking for new friends bc i only hoope that i can make that much difference in ones life as my best friend has. i
i am wierd funy and type terrible . but in the end of the day i am just a guy with adventures in my life and i dont shun from them i embrass them all . sorry for all the bad grmmaer and english haha.
my father was a man with a big heart and beautiful mind. he had passion for his life and his family's. he didnt trust friends and always second guessed them. see my dad was born in 1938. a native to mexico and a life on the ranch and fields. by age 12 his "friends" showed him how to drink smoke and gamble. from the age of 15 he was already on his own and trying to woo my mother . dad was a charismatic and stunning fella. my mom was already falling for him . but she didint let him know that as to she had him around her finger. by the time my mom was 17 her and my father had my oldest sister. they ran off together and started their own lives. fast foward to 1984 . after 5 kids and 15 years apart from the last sibling being born i came out into the world. as i grew up my father taught me many things and was very hard on me. he wanted me to learn to e the man of the house . he wanted to make sure i knew how to provide and love and care for my family. i could never figure out why he was so hard on me . at the age of 12 i figured out why. i was sat down with my dad and mom . then my father looks at my with his strong and peircing eyes says whats wrong why are you scared . i told him i don't want to be in trouble . he says you arent in any trouble . in mater of fact i want to say how proud i am of you and proving how tough and strong you have become . literally 5 secs later he says i have cancer . i am sick. my time is coming to join your other aunts and uncles and granparents. my life was shatterd . my dad passed away nov 4 1998. i was 14. at this point in life i had 1 best friend . and that friend alone . as a teen with no dad i quickly learned to munipulate people and usethat to my advantage. i was a rebel in my family's eyes . ditching school having sex, after high school heavy drinking and drugs came into play. people i was with were my friends i thought . one night atthe bottom of the barrel i look up and see a light . my eyes open and i am in a hospital . 8ball 2 fifths of jack and bottle of tequila made me end up in a hospital . i look to my left and my mother is crying . ny best friend whom i havent seen since my father passed was there. 5 yrs later out of the blue i couldnt beleive he was there . he gave me a letter with a pic of my dad . and said i didnt have the father u have but i loved him as my own. he gave me this to give to u when u would need it most . that letter contained my fathers secretrs and admissions. i broke down . 2 yrs of being sober after .....i started schooling again and got a good job. and a hot gf. we ended up having a son who is super smart and handsome . heis 8. and the other day on the phone with him he tells me dad i have 3 friends they are the best ! they teach me to play baseball and football. and how to run from girls with coodies. see my son is still very innocent as i was . but unlike my father i live 800 mi away. i fully provide or him and see him very often. but as i was saying i beleivee in friends and i beleive the fact that they can save ones life at the moment we needthem most . i am just rambling on here its the first site i opened and saw blog and said why not. i am actaully still very new to this site . and havent really met anyone here . i am looking for new friends bc i only hoope that i can make that much difference in ones life as my best friend has. i
i am wierd funy and type terrible . but in the end of the day i am just a guy with adventures in my life and i dont shun from them i embrass them all . sorry for all the bad grmmaer and english haha.