Ive Had it with this life.......
Im so sick of not being successful, im sick of all the problems not being successful bring.
I was informed today by an elder, My roommates mom of whom i also live with, that she believes Holly would be a fucking fool to even give me a chance...
All because my life isnt in order...Going through a divorce, debt, not started school yet, no place of my own, no family....Why do these things even have to correlate with Love?
For those first few days when i was with Holly, it didnt seem those things mattered as with most things they would get done in time, Soon time though.
I mean will Holly not give me a chance because im not "established" yet? Anyone?
Now that ive lost my job and the never ending search to get one and finalize this divorce so i can get school loans has started, how do i ask Holly if she accepts me for me? i mean how do i say hey, these are the things i carry on my shoulders, is that going to make you want to stop dating me? Id take any advice at this point so lend some, the people of SG are very intelligent and im intelligent when it does come to my own love life, maybe its just my feelings of insecurity and insufficency.
Ah well fuck it, just another challenge. I will get through this, i have like 3 friends, and SG so im good , just need a 40oz of pepsi, some atmosphere and im all set =)
MySluttyFamily, hit me up whenevah.
Im out~
Im so sick of not being successful, im sick of all the problems not being successful bring.
I was informed today by an elder, My roommates mom of whom i also live with, that she believes Holly would be a fucking fool to even give me a chance...
All because my life isnt in order...Going through a divorce, debt, not started school yet, no place of my own, no family....Why do these things even have to correlate with Love?
For those first few days when i was with Holly, it didnt seem those things mattered as with most things they would get done in time, Soon time though.
I mean will Holly not give me a chance because im not "established" yet? Anyone?
Now that ive lost my job and the never ending search to get one and finalize this divorce so i can get school loans has started, how do i ask Holly if she accepts me for me? i mean how do i say hey, these are the things i carry on my shoulders, is that going to make you want to stop dating me? Id take any advice at this point so lend some, the people of SG are very intelligent and im intelligent when it does come to my own love life, maybe its just my feelings of insecurity and insufficency.
Ah well fuck it, just another challenge. I will get through this, i have like 3 friends, and SG so im good , just need a 40oz of pepsi, some atmosphere and im all set =)
MySluttyFamily, hit me up whenevah.
Im out~
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He came home from work the other morning, telling me he talked to the girl and told her they couldn't continue as friends at all anymore and couldn't hang out, and he really wanted us to give our relationship and this family a shot. The problem is, I didn't know that he was continuing to hang out with his girl as much as he was, and so the news that he had to tell her again that they needed to stop hanging out so much was a betrayal all over again. I don't understand how he could do that, knowing how much it hurt me, and don't know if I ever will. It makes me want to run away from the hurt, and forget the family I want to keep together so badly.
Edited to get rid of pathetic drivel tyring to explain why my husband was acting like a selfish immature asshole. Thank you, and God I'm such a pathetic idiot.
[Edited on Jul 15, 2004 9:08PM]
If she wants a relationship she will except you as you are. These kind of things happen. There is nothing you can do about it. Sometime people are jerks. BUT.... Life goes on. Even if she doesn't want a relationship, or want to further the relationship then there's nothing you can do about it. So best of luck..........