tigerwong

Ok, so this was originally going to be a comment in Morgan's journal, but it got really long. So i'm going make it into my own entry, and Morgan, i hope you're reading, cuz i totally feel you.

There are some people who think that could be making a very big mistake in the next few months or so, and are concerned for me. Right now, even though i've mostly made up my mind, i'm still not totally at peace with it (and that's the kind of thing that doesn't happen till it happens). I wish there was a way for them to understand that it's just something that i have to take care of by myself and on my own terms. If i end up being totally wrong, then i'll deal. Lord knows i've dealt with plenty of really wrong decisions before, and i'm a better person for them. If there's a lesson to be learned, i'll learn it. I'm a strong person now becauyse the mistakes i made previously didn't kill me; i learned from them and they gave me direction. I mean, how are you supposed to find the right path if you don't take a few wrong turns?

I remember something a guest speaker (Pastor Bernard; awesome man) at church back home said. He said that "God's plan for people is like a GPS system. If you get lost, He can guide you back to where you were supposed to be going. Sometimes you might have to go backwards to where you got off the path. Sometimes you have to go thru some rough neighborhoods to get back on the right path, but He will not leave you, and he will bring you back to where you're supposed to be going." Basically that's how i feel like my life is right now. I was definitely going the wrong way with my career, and He had to take me backwards (ie: back to school) so that i could get back on te road to success. So if i'm about to take a wrong turn, i know he can bring me back to the right path.

But then like Morgan said (paraphrasing) i might not be going the wrong way at all. I could heading towards something really amazing. Either way, i want to find out on my own. It's the only way i really ever learn or do anything that's important or worthwhile.