To continue from my last post...
Cecile... We met at the Club Liquid Goth Halloween Party... I was just doing my thing, dancing around, and I spotted this cute little thing on the dance floor. Over the course of the night I ended up dancing beside her. By the end of the night I was dancing with her.
As the night was coming to a close I asked her if she would like to step to the side to talk for a minute. We proceded to exchange info, say goodnight, and go about our business.
A couple of days later I contacted her nad we made plans to hang out. Went to her apartment by UMSL. I'm pretty sure that the first time we hung out we went to Blueberry Hill. Seeing that, at this point I had already learned that she was a French foreign exchange student, you don't get much more American culture than Blueberry Hill. We talked and had a good time learning about one another, I also found out that she had a boyfriend back home... but that didn't stop me. I had decided the first time we met that she was going to be mine.
I used every romantic, chivalrous, and sweet thing I knew to seduce her... and so insued the romantic love affair.
2 months is all I had to hold her in my arms before she had to go back home to France. I don't think I had cried so hard for so long since my Grandfathers funeral.
Now we communicate by email, chat, and webcam. I Love her dearly... but this is were the trouble begins.
I have noticed that my depression is becoming severe again. It is a number of different things, some are a whole nother story completely, but the strongest being the lack of human touch since Christmas. I am not a person who bases my existance on my realationships, But I am a person who requres a large amount of phisical affection.
We talk a lot but, even with the marvels of modern technology, a computer screen has a limited satisfaction to it.
She is coming back here for the month of August. After that there is no definite time frame for her return.
All of my friends like her a lot and support me in my wait. But I don't know how long I can continue to wait.
I know what I should do... I just don't know if I can really do it...
Can I really hold out?
Is all this pain worth it?
Is this just the withdrawl stage that will diminish after time?
If I do stick through it, what are the actual chances that this is the woman I will marry?
...what am I doing with my life?
p.s. I finally added some more pictures.
Cecile... We met at the Club Liquid Goth Halloween Party... I was just doing my thing, dancing around, and I spotted this cute little thing on the dance floor. Over the course of the night I ended up dancing beside her. By the end of the night I was dancing with her.
As the night was coming to a close I asked her if she would like to step to the side to talk for a minute. We proceded to exchange info, say goodnight, and go about our business.
A couple of days later I contacted her nad we made plans to hang out. Went to her apartment by UMSL. I'm pretty sure that the first time we hung out we went to Blueberry Hill. Seeing that, at this point I had already learned that she was a French foreign exchange student, you don't get much more American culture than Blueberry Hill. We talked and had a good time learning about one another, I also found out that she had a boyfriend back home... but that didn't stop me. I had decided the first time we met that she was going to be mine.
I used every romantic, chivalrous, and sweet thing I knew to seduce her... and so insued the romantic love affair.
2 months is all I had to hold her in my arms before she had to go back home to France. I don't think I had cried so hard for so long since my Grandfathers funeral.
Now we communicate by email, chat, and webcam. I Love her dearly... but this is were the trouble begins.
I have noticed that my depression is becoming severe again. It is a number of different things, some are a whole nother story completely, but the strongest being the lack of human touch since Christmas. I am not a person who bases my existance on my realationships, But I am a person who requres a large amount of phisical affection.
We talk a lot but, even with the marvels of modern technology, a computer screen has a limited satisfaction to it.
She is coming back here for the month of August. After that there is no definite time frame for her return.
All of my friends like her a lot and support me in my wait. But I don't know how long I can continue to wait.
I know what I should do... I just don't know if I can really do it...
Can I really hold out?
Is all this pain worth it?
Is this just the withdrawl stage that will diminish after time?
If I do stick through it, what are the actual chances that this is the woman I will marry?
...what am I doing with my life?
p.s. I finally added some more pictures.
hellomrworld:
good luck .. long distance relationships are hard
hellomrworld:
happy birthday to you )