@nickstone Maybe something I read last night will be of some help, my friend. Where you are, is where you are. No amount of wishing or planning will make that different. Feeling the absence is as important as what is present, what ends, as well as what has begun. Blurry is blurry, it may not be the sharpness we want, but it is where we are, and recognizing that we can begin to move. Fog burns brightly in the full sun, making it even harder to see, but eventually the sun is too much and that fog lifts, and all that was hidden is returned.
Cynical, observant, assessing, opinionated, judgmental. Then again, people watching isn't always the best thing. Though wrapping a clouded head around a season based on joy and gratitude and love has always been a struggle.
@arroezze For a few years, when I was doing my massage therapy as my primary, I would plunk down in the mall, or on the street and watch people walk. Watch their gait, the way the would favor a leg, or twist at the hip, and in that diagnose them, what was wrong, what could be fixed so that they could move more freely. It gave my mind a task to keep it from turning inward and using it's tools on me.
