(day 2)
ok...new week, same issues.
i think i'm down to 2 significants.....one has just become a real good friend, as i think that's all i can offer her realistically. and i also think it takes the pressure off of her quite a lot. not that i ever pressured her you understand...it's just that now, i am out of the picture in THAT sense...it'll be easier for her.
the on/off girlfriend is definitely OFF right now. she's being pretty insensitive towards me at the moment, i know i'm probably too sensitive and waaay to 'emo', but after 18 months she should know this right? for someone who is so good with words and so good at manipulating conversations.....she's pretty thoughtless at times.
we never spoke yesterday, thats the first time in AGES we aint had contact for more than a day...i actually cant remember the last time that happened. around january/february i think.
but she said she'd 'text me' so wait i shall.
in other news...?
the diet and exercise routine kicks of in earnest this week.
many thanks to Tetrisbrokeme for the Tabata info.
but today is just a run.
i know i run slower than a shackled slug but it's good to get the blood pumping and it gives me thinking time...which i REALLY need right now. so...with the fridge exclusion zone in place we should be rocking and losing a few unwanted holiday pounds! i've set no weight target, just 4 weeks of this.
daily exercise.
no bread
no cereal
no alcohol
no snacking (except on friut.)
well...what a cheery blog that was....full of women troubles and mild self abuse.
there may be further updates today...watch this space.....
tonights dinner will be Nasi Goreng...but i'm gonna throw a few peas in this time as i feel it will benefit from the 'green-ness'
stop press at 15.36
she texts me...''did you have a good weekend?'' seriously...is she for real?
ok...new week, same issues.
i think i'm down to 2 significants.....one has just become a real good friend, as i think that's all i can offer her realistically. and i also think it takes the pressure off of her quite a lot. not that i ever pressured her you understand...it's just that now, i am out of the picture in THAT sense...it'll be easier for her.
the on/off girlfriend is definitely OFF right now. she's being pretty insensitive towards me at the moment, i know i'm probably too sensitive and waaay to 'emo', but after 18 months she should know this right? for someone who is so good with words and so good at manipulating conversations.....she's pretty thoughtless at times.
we never spoke yesterday, thats the first time in AGES we aint had contact for more than a day...i actually cant remember the last time that happened. around january/february i think.
but she said she'd 'text me' so wait i shall.
in other news...?
the diet and exercise routine kicks of in earnest this week.
many thanks to Tetrisbrokeme for the Tabata info.
but today is just a run.
i know i run slower than a shackled slug but it's good to get the blood pumping and it gives me thinking time...which i REALLY need right now. so...with the fridge exclusion zone in place we should be rocking and losing a few unwanted holiday pounds! i've set no weight target, just 4 weeks of this.
daily exercise.
no bread
no cereal
no alcohol
no snacking (except on friut.)
well...what a cheery blog that was....full of women troubles and mild self abuse.
there may be further updates today...watch this space.....
tonights dinner will be Nasi Goreng...but i'm gonna throw a few peas in this time as i feel it will benefit from the 'green-ness'
stop press at 15.36
she texts me...''did you have a good weekend?'' seriously...is she for real?
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Dont put your energy into others put it into yourself. Esp ones that cant be bothered with you xx