thedarkharlequin

happy fuckin new year.
woke up today depressed. hate that shit.
hating everything I own.
sick of feeling alone. of sleeping alone.

this year is over, and i'm reflecting on where I was at the end of last year and what I've done since then.

good things:
made a lot of new friends thanks to this site
finally had the balls to look like the wierdo I've always been
finally had the balls to move downtown by my self
got into shape a little bit
had sex at least once this year
forced myself to go do fun things even if no one would come with me
forced myself to start calling people instead of hoping someone would call me

bad things:
still haven't taken a college class(last years new years resolution)
peoples hurt feelings
drama
drunken mistakes


the good out weights the bad, but somehow I don't feel any better. I just want to lay down with someone that I can say i love in my arms, and start my new year unafraid.

why do I feel like this. incomplete without someone else. why is it every weekend I'm out searching for that missing piece of me.