the_monster

sometimes i wish i had a talent. i mean, i'm sure there is something(s) i'm really good at, i just haven't found it. i've always wished i could draw or be artistic but i've never had steady hands (add to this the fact my fingers have all been mangled over the years) and can't even draw a straight line. i tried learning to play bass but didn't have the time, money, or determination to stick with it at the time. when i was little i took karate for a few weeks, maybe even months, but one day they said "next week we're going to break boards with our heads" and i said "no thank you" and that was the end of that. i guess i want a hobby i'm really good at. i'm such an old man at heart, everyone who spends a decent amount of time tells me this (honestly, dozens of people have told me this), i wish i knew how to carve pipes. why? i have no clue. i just want to sit on my porch, listen to muddy waters, and carve myself a pipe.

i also wish i had a memory. i have never had much for memory. most of my memories are like these little snap shots i keep in my mind. it's literally like having a photo in my head. i have these singular frozen images, and they're very detailed.... but few of them have much for context.

this blog is turning into my wish list, mine as well make it my official wish list so here's some more:
all the books in the world.
the ability to feed my wanderlust.
a pretty girl to travel with (any takers?)
eternal happiness.

yeah, i'm pretty simple.