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I came here with empty hopes.

I drove by your house, to see if I could let go that way, but you weren't there...

I laid in bed on Christmas eve and cried for hours until I fell asleep.

I opened my presents but felt they were nothing compared to seeing your face once more.

I sat by myself on the steps of the porch, waiting like a lost child...hoping that maybe, just maybe you would show up.

Yeah reality isn't like the movies. I realized that tonight.

All I want is your forgivness. Not over the telephone or the computer or email. But to tell you in person, that I am sorry, and that I love you.

and I would walk away, and never bother you again.

I've never felt as empty as I have these past few days.

I love the fact that I'm spending Christmas with my family. I love the fact that I'm back in a town that is filled with happy memories for me, and reminds me of the person I could have been had I not left back to Tucson.

But something has been missing. And I just can't smile.

I wish you were home. I wish I could run up to your door, and see your face, and smile, and tell you how much I've missed you.

I wish I would stop waiting.

I wish I could move on.

I've never been good with open wounds.