Dude I totally feel the same way all the time. And it's weird cause I'll be home and getting ready and stuff and be like damn you look cute today (into the mirror) then when I get out there and I see all the other girls I'm just like fuck you shoulda stayed home tonight.
And I can go out and have the greatest times with some of the people I know, just being myself. Being goofy and fun and laughing at myself. But then there are other times when I feel so uninvited. Like everyone else has all these great amazing things that they do and whatever and I'm just...I dunno left out or whatever.
I completely HATE when people from SG add me to their msn list and don't want to get to know me they just sit there and ramble on about how cute they think I am and that I should have no problems and that everyone loves me and stuff.
(not everyone is like that I'm not saying that there are a billion people adding me to msn and all that kinda stuff, but this has happened a couple times and I've always been like WTF mate!)
I DON'T HAVE A CLUE WHY ANYONE WOULD SAY THAT OR THINK THAT ABOUT ME!
Like honestly....no one in real life ever talks to me or hits on me or anything. When I wake up in the morning I look just as bad as you do. I am lonely and fucked up and horrible things have happened to me in the past just like they have happened to you. My life is no easier than your life. I'm not that pretty...I'm just normal. I'm not sexy and I don't think of myself like that. I think at the best I'm cute and I'm so cool with that, that's where I'm comfy.
Bah this turned into a big rant. Bah sorry...but I totally know what you're going though honey.
I think your amazing, you're beautiful and you're going to have an awesome life for sure. People have every reason in the world to like you. I would totally love to hang out with you and be your friend and I've thought that ever since I met you on here. You are one of the coolest fucking people in the world....never forget that!
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