... that banjo isn't anything special, i bought it off a friend of mine for 75 bucks when he bought a nicer one, the one he bought was really nice. sorry to hear about your situation, hope it all resolves itself in a pleasant manner. in the meanwhile keep drinking like a lush, not because you are unhappy and what not, just do it so i won't be drinking alone...

don't worry about being self centered. to be honest, so much bad shit has been happening lately, that i don't even think about it. i just can't. i know this sounds like denial, but i just can't deal with so much bad stuff all at once. i just sort of cave in and...my step dad had cancer twice...i hope the best for you and your mom. if you need to talk, or just write a really long letter you don't want the whole world seeing, you know where to find me.

Sorry to hear about that. I have the perspective to know that my little niggly illness of yesterday is nothing that bad... well, I assume so, anyway. There is a self-satisfied self-pity to the idea that one is sick until you contemplate other people's real and much worse illnesses. I feel decently after some muscle-relaxing pills. They helped me get all this typing done.

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*gives you a good smack* there's nothing self centered about they way you are feeling! when people, especially when it's your mother, get sick it affects the lives of every one who loves them in a big fucking way. it's ok to feel the strain & stress of your situation. don't get down on yourself. i can't see myself maintaining 1/2 as well as you seem to be. if you need some where to vent you know where to find me...Eve L. loves you!